May 18, 2009

Fly away with freedom :)


I write this post not out of frustration, but out of sheer understanding of WHAT I AM. It might surprise you guys but it took me time to make myself understand that rather than being sad because I am not the sort of person that my friends want me to be, I should understand that if 5 or 6 people hate me, I have a 100 more to love me for what I am!

You say I am to be blamed if I don't fit in properly into a so-called extraordinary group of yours? I don't think I should be blamed after all for what I think you all did to me! When will some people understand that I cannot be like them? If you think I don't match up to your standards, its alright! After all no one is that dependent on anybody! Right??

You cannot blame Usha Utthup for not singing like Shreya Ghoshal, can you?? Nor can you blame Romesh Powar for not playing like Sachin Tendulkar! Right?? Hah! How dumb!! And I kept blaming myself for it all this while.

Sometimes it is just so better to let go of things.
We have a habit of clinging on to things. We indulge so much in emotions that we somehow turn our backs to practicality! Emotions are good, but not at the expense of hurting yourself. People may not necessarily understand you all the time - why you did it, what you did etc. We, for that matter at least I, always think of giving it one more try - one more try to strike a chord with the other person, one more try to keep him/her happy, but all I end up doing is getting hurt and still getting up to give it a try ONE MORE TIME! It is better at times to realize that you are not the one for this. I can't let someone rule on me!

I have been a philanthropist all my life, but now I feel the need to change! I want to live for myself, my family and the ones whom I love. I don't want to be hurt all the time when I am trying so hard to bring a smile to your face!

Life is tough, a lot more tougher for me now! I have to take every expectation in my stride and I have to fulfill them! I might disappoint a few, but that would always have a reason!

I always wondered Why ME? May be certain things are better left unanswered. And that is what life teaches you! Take everything that comes your way...disappointments, happiness, love, failures, success, pain...everything! Set yourself free...! Trust me on this...you will only see yourself changed for the better! :)

P.S.: You might end up feeling that I am oh so sad, but duh!! You are wrong! I am so very happy that I rediscovered so many things about myself!

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13 comments:

Chronicwriter said...

f i expect romesh powar to play like sachin, i will be dumb for sure

chrizu angry here

Arun Kumar said...

oh...whats happened to you...???
but anyways...all of what u say is true...accept with that..Take life as it is...n try to be happy always...

You said "U dont wanna see me angry"...n i thought u were kiddin back then....hmm...

Aarthi said...

@ Chriz

Disaster that would be! :P

Aarthi said...

@ Arun,

See...i told you! And nothing happened da! :)

Chaarz said...

Their's a saying...

If you compare yourself with anyone you are insulting yourself..

I guess that says it all..:)

YEa..you r right gurl..I love you for what you are.. so No changes.. Just stay the way you want to be..

Keep smiling
Happy writing..:)
Love..
charzz

chirag said...

just keep smiling
and always think about positive aspect of life
and stay happy

and fir bhi koi pareshan kare to bolna apun ko nipta denge

Arjun said...

always think of giving it one more try - one more try to strike a chord with the other person, one more try to keep him/her happy, but all I end up doing is getting hurt and still getting up to give it a try ONE MORE TIME! It is better at times to realize that you are not the one for this. I can't let someone rule on me!:) :) This is exactly wat i feel at times.. :)

"I am myself" is so true... everyone r unique in every own different ways... It's all okay until that line " I am wat i am" becomes an excuse... ryt na?? :)

I am so very happy that I rediscovered so many things about myself! .. gr8... :)

cheers..!!
Arjun

The Pink Orchid said...

oyeeeeeeee meri sherni.. :) hugsssss!!

Rose said...

Hmmm...self discoverin' is an ongoin', everlastin' process...keep discovern' youself..all the best:)

Priyanka said...

well expressed dear....be wht u are... :)

hary!! said...

Ramesh powar and Sachin!! wow thats lol like Chriz said!anywas like the Reebok tagline goes
'I am What I am '

Nice write !

Leo said...

hmm! :)

i'll read this out to u, the next time we talk on the phone! :D ;)

Leo said...

oh damn! i forgot to read it out on the phone! now u dont get irri when i tell i'll read.. so cant pull ur leg like that anymore! :P