WHAT??

Last night was an eye-opener sorts for me. I have a reason to support what I felt.


As any normal person complains, I too have my set of complaints. I do think and brood over them. I do cry thinking about my problems. I do suddenly feel the urge to do something that would bring all my problems to an end and I do admit that I have a habit of 'sometimes' blaming someone else for my problems. It is a matter of shame that in the last few months, I have blamed my parents for the problems I face.


I know that what I felt, was the biggest mistake I did ever in my life. Last night there was one surprise in store for me. My dad called. No, that is not the surprise I was talking about. My dad called and he was talking to mom. While talking about other things, there was one thing he said, "We earn quite a good income, and inspite of that I have never done anything for my daughter. Every time I plan to do something for her, God gives me some problem or the other." My mom told me that he sounded to be in pain.


I could not sleep last night. Realization dawned on me. I really did think abour how hard he works to bring us out of all the problems we are going through. I have never done anything for him. I 'work' or may be just pretend to do so for the sake of it. But I hardly care of my work brings any returns or not. I have been living an awful meaningless life. I have just blamed my dad all this while. I have never helped him.


But, that soul (My Father) has always taught me lessons...those lessons which has only got me better.


I am sorry dad to have let you down till date. I promise to work hard. I promise to hear it one day from you that you are proud of me. After all that happened yesterday, I can just say one thing - 

'Expect the worst and the best is yet to happen.'

Last week I wrote a post. I promised to speak the truth for a week. Trust me guys, it was difficult... way too difficult. I did try my best. And to my surprise I could manage it well. But I did fail... three times in that week. Still, I learnt the art of being honest.

This week, am not putting the blame on anybody for anything. I am going to take the responsibility for my actions...whether good or bad. Even if the worst happens, it is only going to make me strong and capable of handling everything that comes my way.

Best Wishes,

Nyx!

OUTRIGHTLY (HILARIOUS + SERIOUS)

I am back from the so called period of 'exile' that I had forced myself into.


Something is just pissing me off these days...something or the other. Lol... i just don't know why. But amidst all this, there was something that I saw on t.v. which can be called as OUTRIGHTLY HILARIOUS. Any guesses about what it could have been? 


It was - RAHUL MAHAJAN KA SWAYAMVAR. ROFLMAO!


The girls, the set-up, RAHUL MAHAJAN... OMG! I so remember what happened in that episode. All the girls had to write a diary for Rahul. A girl wrote something in the purest form of Hindi and she quoted to Rahul that he was as capable as Lord Krishna who had 16,108 wives. Lol. Lol.


I really think NDTV IMAGINE has gone NUTS! How about featuring my swayamvar on your channel eh? Jeez!!

Moving away from something that was outrightly hilarious, its time to talk about something that is outrightly serious.


It feels so good to have people around us...friends and family. They are our real strength. I recently found a source of strength...a new friend (a friend for life). That person is my twin, in the real sense of the word. We are going through the same phase of life and I am so glad that we are coming out of that phase holding hands - TOGETHER!

In front of the whole wide world, I welcome you - ESTHER EVELYN to my sweet little world. :)

*A welcome hug*

Life is so colorful, isn't it. Yes, you cannot ignore the shade that I hate the most - BLACK.
Every person who walks into your life is different, every minute is different... and in each passing moment, we have learnt how to lie to ourself. Yes, you got that right.


We really find no trouble in committing something that we cannot do. For example, how about promising a friend for a lunch with her and you know you have some other commitment that day? You know you can't make it right? Then why commit?


This is how it is. Every moment we do something like this, we are being untrue to our own self as well as the other person. Being untrue to our own self hardly makes a difference to us today right? Because we see no consequence of such an action of ours. BUT, something that is so startling is the fact that not being true to yourself is day-by-day becoming our habit. Such a habit can do no good. All it will lead us to one day is a point where we would be breaking the trust that someone has on us. Trust, a bond , is very flimsy. You need to handle with care. As they say, it takes a second to break the trust but years to build it; and once broken, there is hardly a way to rebuild it.


Think about it for a second. Try keeping a check... for say a week.


Check how many times do you say something that you just don't mean. In the virtual world, to which we are so used to, how many times do you end up saying 'Awwwwww....baby you are the sweetest!' to someone...who, according to you, probably doesn't deserve this? Yes, this happens. It happens with me too.


I am trying to change it all. I am under a self check project and I need some like-minded people who would be ready to take up this challenge along with me. For a week, I am not saying or doing something that I don't mean. Are you ready?? :)

THE LUCKY CHINESE TAG : THE EMINENT EIGHTS

Thank you Leo (or Vinu, as I fondly call him) for the tag. As the year FINALLY draws to an end, this would perhaps be my last post till the 1st day of the New Year! :)

8 Shows I Like To Watch :
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
90210
When I Met Your Mother
MTV Roadies
V Rock On
America's Got Talent
Hannah Montana
Suite Life


8 Favorite Place To Eat & Drink :
McDonalds
Pizza Hut
Big Chills
Purani Dilli
Keventers'
Banana Leaf
Gianis
Chinese Restaurants


8 Things I Look Forward To :
LOSING a bit of weight
Change my hairdo asap
Work with more dedication
Save more money
Make more friends
Change my wardrobe
Write more and more
To Travel


8 Things That Happened Yesterday :
My aunt returned from Hrishikesh
Started reading The Alchemist
Tried to write on a topic for the n-th time but was unsuccessful
Cooked good food after a long time
Had 5 chapathis in a row
Slept in the afternoon
Behaved amazingly stupid for not having any plans for the New Year
Fought with my dad for not talking to me since morning


8 Things I Love About Winter :
We don't sweat in winters
Can have loads of soups and tea
Sleeping under a warm blanket
Cuddling
Chill (of the winter and the fan!)
Ice-creamsssss
Fog
Cute children (all dressed in bright woolens)


8 Things On My Wishlist :
An APPLE I-Pod
Good meaningful writings from me
Making great friends
LOSE weight
Learn something new
Wish my bitch gives puppies this time
A Labrador
Want to gift my mom gold bangles


8 Things I Am Passionate About :
Reading Books
Music
Writing
Gaining Knowledge
Learning my work
Chocolates
Helping people
Facebook


8 Words / Phrases I Often Use :
Yay!
WTF
Let that Be
Geeeee :D
Hmm
Awww
Darn
Nope


8 Things I Learnt From The Past :
People will know the real you one day or the other.
Let no one tell you what you cannot do.
There will be people who would constantly try to bring you down.
The real strength lies WITHIN YOU.
God is to be believed.
You cannot run away from your mistakes. Learn from them and do not repeat them again.
Friends give you a lot of strength.
Actions speak louder than words.


8 Places I Would Love To Go/Visit/See :
Bangalore
Dubai
Malaysia
London
Old Trafford
Beijing
Mumbai
Disney Land


8 Things I Currently Need/Want :
An Apple I-Pod
A PlayStation
Winter Clothing
Amazing Candy Vending Machine
Soft drink fountain
Understanding people around me
The freedom to live my life my way
Chocolates


The first five who comment on this post would be required to do this tag.


Thanks!


Here is wishing each one of you a very happy new year. May God bless you with all the success and happiness you deserve! Have a fabulous day. Stay Safe! :)

Tag and Awards!

Thank you Shravan for the Awards and this tag. :)

1.What is your current obsession?
Facebook!


2. What are you wearing today?
White tshirt and blue jeans




3. What’s for dinner?
Its lunch time now... :P




4. What’s the last thing you bought?
Went to buy milk.


5. What are you listening to right now?
an SMS beep!


6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
Shravan, a cute brother.


7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
Delhi.


8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
A loose tshirt and a capri and an Air-conditioner!


9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Nowhere!


10. Which language do you want to learn?
Prolly...French!


11. What’s your favourite quote?
Let no one in the world tell you what you cannot do.


12. Who do you want to meet right now?
Santa


13. What is your favourite colour?
Blue, Black and White


14. What is your favourite piece of clothing in your own closet?
A beautiful salwar-kameez


15. What is your dream job?
Something I had wanted to do since very long... write to be read!


16. What’s your favourite magazine?
India Today


17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
Beauty Parlour :P


18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
Wearing something that you are not comfortable in.


19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
Victoria Beckham


20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
Layers


21. What are you going to do after this?
Think about another blog post


22. What are your favorite movies?
Lord of the Rings, Kal Ho Na Ho...


23.How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
3...Facebook, Blogger, Google


24. What inspires you?
The thought of living a happy and contented life.


25. Give us three styling tips that always work for you:
Kajal, Lip Gloss and a Perfume.


26. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)?
Wonder when will a day come when ill be happy with whatever I have in my closet! :P


27. Coffee or tea?
Tea.


28. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
Cry myself to sleep.


30. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
Scribblings (By Freelancer), Enigmatic Rantings (By Sowmiya) and Figments of Imagination (By Leo).


31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
Chocolate Brownie with Ice-cream.


32. Favorite Season?
WINTER!


33. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
Mix Vegetable, Dal and Rice...(Because that is what is being cooked right now at my place.)


34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
Smile at them.


35. What are you afraid of the most?
Lizards... :P


36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
A hug.


37. My Questinon: What is the first thing you do once uve booted ur system?
Open Facebook, Load Google Talk.


Rules for those who are tagged:
Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.


I would love to pass on the tag and award to :
Leo, Sowmiya and Rosh.

Another brainless rant... :P

Well, oh well... it's been a pretty long time since I landed here last.


Many reasons I have that forced me to stay away from my Utopian World - to begin with, I went on a family tour to Tirupati...needless to say, it was fun. Second, I went to Bangalore, met Prats, Abhrajit and someone new...Abhishek Maiti; the last...fever, cold and sore throat!


There has been a lot to think over in the last few days... I want to be a journalist (Any journo listening?), I want a Louis Vuitton bag, I want to revive the blogger in me, I want to earn big time, I want to be happy, I want to go abroad, I want to get married, have kids, stay happy...phew!!


Alright, let me have the privilege to cut my own crap and begin with some sensible 'gyaan' for you guys! o_O


Tirupati... a heavenly place! Lord Venkateswara (or Lord Balaji) rests over seven mountains. The place is called Tirumala. A pilgrimage, where thousands of people flock to just catch a glimse of the Lord. Mind you, you can just catch a glimse of him! When I came out after seeing him, all I knew was that all the time that I was there in the Garbagraham (the main spot where Lord Venkateswara is), I had my eyes fixed on him. I cam out with tears in my eyes. The only thing I felt at that particular moment was that now since I have seen him and mentally prostrated in front of him, all my worries will be taken care by him. He is the wire-puller and so he knows, what I want.


People from different states (even from North India) were chanting the name of the Lord while standing in queues. But... what was irritating was that... even while standing in the queue, the people were just not considerate towards the females. They were pushing each and everyone so badly while making their way towards Garbagraham. My maternal aunt accompanied us to Tirupati. She was close to 55 years old. I saw ladies who were close to 70 years old, being pushed by the uncles around.Sad... someone needs to teach them decency!


Anyways guys...these days, I don't know why, I am just not able to gather all my intellect and try and push myself to write something worth a read. Hope to be back soon with something that would ring a bell in someone's head.


Nyx!

I Am Back! ;)

Alright guys, December begins! I am back here...

I've been out of blogsville for almost a month. In this one whole month, I noticed a lot of things, my imagination was at its best and also, I learnt many new things! Good? Yea!

I am not happy these days because of a lot of things. Be decent and don't ask me why's, what's and how's. Keep them to yourself. But anyway, I trust God and I am sure, he'll lead me through this. Second, facebook is keeping me quite busy for no reason... (Yea, it doesn't even pay me for being so loyal...MARK, are you listening?)

Last weekend, I went to my friend's place and while I was on my way, I got stuck in a traffic jam... typical Delhi! What caught my stupid wandering mind's attention was different people in different mode of transports... everything different, but just one thing in common. Guess what? All of them were busy looking out of their windows. I saw each one of them gazing out of their windows, thinking about something...or may be, nothing! Many people were with their family and to my surprise, no one was talking to each other! All were silent...

Why are we all like this? Why don't we want to spend some time with our loved ones? Why can't we just share a laugh with them? Are we really that busy or is it that we just claim to be so? I know some questions just do not have an answer.

But, some questions have their answers hidden in them. For instance, when I was in school, my schoolmates from my apartment always waited for our bus outside the apartment gate. Every morning a lady had a duty to make it a point to ask me the same question. Just when she saw me dressed in my school uniform, waiting for the bus, she used to ask me, "Beta, school ja rahe ho?" (Translation : Child, are you going to school?) And obviously my reaction, always, was...WTF! My mind always mumbled to itself, "No, am going to the circus!" Phew...!!

I also noticed one more thing... ladies can never stop gossiping! They love gossips more than their husband. Don't know when will this stop.

Anyways, I am back! And I missed you all...

Love,

Nyx! ;)

Good Old Days!

Alright, so I am back with a post... after a long time indeed!


Know what guys? Whatever it is, it is damn cute! ... the thing is... my dad is attending his School Alumni Meet soon! And the best part of the story is that recently he received a mail from his classmate and you should have looked at the smile on his face... stretching from ear to ear. He was looking very cute. He is turning 51 on Nov 30th and at this age, when he got to know about his schoolmates etc., it was the return of good  times for him. Touchwood...


Without drifting away from the topic, I was just thinking, how would I feel when I would get to meet my classmate when I would be, say, 50 years old. Awesome!! I am already giggling like a kid. I saw the kid inside my dad come alive today. It certainly would be feeling amazing, isn't it?


How eventful that Alumni Meet would be! A group of friends... talking about their life after school, about their family, about their profession, remembering those days when they hated their Mathematics professor, etc. Wow! Life is beautiful at times, isn't it? I have a schoolmate - Nidhi. Say I meet her when am around 50 years of age, completely unexpected! We try hard to recognize each other and when we do, how would the reaction be?... like this? ...


*Mouth wide open*


Nidhiiiii? Oh my god... hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii... how have you been??? 


Every word, every sentence would be exclamatory in nature! Right?


Life sometimes presents you with such pleasant surprises. Pure bliss! All the best dad for your Alumni Meet... hope you have an awesome time.


Love,


Your Daughter!


Guys, tell me how would you feel if you meet your classmate in a completely unexpected circumstance after may be 30 years? Pour in your views!