Wedding bells ringing?

Birthdays were so much fun till I was 18 or 19 years old. My 20th birthday made me realize that I was no more a kid. My college friend got engaged when she was 20.

My 21st birthday... 12th Jan, 2009... it got me scared! There was no flavour of happiness anymore. It was just another day, yet it had something serious attached to it. I was growing an year older. Why was I sad? Why was I not happy like I used to be? May be the very meaning of the day had changed...

An year older...

The first thing that comes to my mind is - I can anytime hear the wedding bells ringing! Damn!

Ever thought about it seriously? C'mon girls...think about it! I have started to think a lot about it!

So many of my friends are getting married so soon...

The engagement ceremony, haldi ceremony, henna, laughters, music playing loud and all that jazz...!

Just yesterday she was a happy-go-lucky sort of a girl and today all of a sudden, her life takes a big turn...the biggest turn! What would she be feeling? Wasn't she so free from all responsibilities till now? Wasn't she free to get up at 10 A.M. in the morning and still not be answerable to anyone? Wasn't she free to enjoy that 'laughter'? Wasn't she free to speak to anyone she wanted to? Wasn't she free to do no household chores and still not be blamed for it?

And now, she would be so much more accountable to everyone in her family. Her life is no more hers. It would always be about her husband, her kids, her in-laws and then about her. So many responsibilities all of a sudden, her thoughts, her fears... no one can answer them!

One of my friends just got married on May 31st... What I could see on her face was more than just happiness, she was tensed...she did not know what will happen... she had so many things to look after. This was the time when she would have to build up the base of the most important relationship of her life... a relationship that would determine her future! Everything would be on her... maintaining the house, taking care of every household activity, building strong relationships with everyone, it would now be about 'her family'.

With every single day passing, my heart is skipping a beat! I just pray that 'THE DAY' never comes. I am behaving like an idiot I know. But that is what any girl would feel. Every single discussions we have without our parents about getting married at the age of 25 and not before that... stops making sense as soon as they find a good guy! Hah!

It almost seems that we never had a life of our own...nor would we ever have. Sigh!!

My message to my friends who are going to get married -

We know we can't help it, isn't it? We epitomize strength. We can handle it girls...

Get married... You can do it... Shrug away all the fears, break all the inhibitions! :)

May you be blessed with all the happiness and strength. Stay blessed! :)

*HUGS*

A Pain That Will Last Forever!

Everything is so unpredictable these days, isn't it?

Life has itself become a Roadies Battleground or another Splitsvilla for that matter. Yesterday, I saw an episode of real life (And not reel life) Splitsvilla. My friend's girl friend (now his ex-girl friend) got married to someone else yesterday... big day for both of them.

This is not the time to think about what went wrong, what could have been done or anything as such. It is the time for pure emotions, confessions, tears and hugs. It is the time when your friendship with that person gets tested.

I don't know what all would be going through your mind dear, but of all I know, I think this is what you want to tell her -

Dear Love,

I do know what went wrong between us. I do know that I was at fault. The world knows how much we loved each other and that love was not fake.

Today you are getting married and I am all alone here thinking about where I went wrong, what I did. I don't know all that but all I can say is that ever since you came into my life, I loved you with all my heart and soul. I don't know if I would be able to forget you. I love your smile, that hug with which you greeted everyone, that strength in you, that vigour to support someone you believe in, that will to fight life's harsh bends and curves, that love that you showered upon me...I love you!

I have made you cry a lot of times gurl, but tonight I have compensated for it. I would continue to do it all through my life. Thinking of every moment that I had spent with you are today giving me goosebumps...

I know you can never be mine now... But my hearts yearns for your love... It pains when I see you with somebody else... I know I am a loser... But my heart denies to accept the fact that you can now never be mine!

My heart still loves you and no matter what I do, I will always love you!

With Love,

Yours Truly.

Hey guy, all I can say is life goes on. I know what you are going through right now, but trust me... You will get over it and you will have to get over it. Khush reh yaar...sab theek ho jayega. I cried the whole night for you...I know that no one can share the space that she had in your heart, but as a friend, I will always be there with you to share that pain. Love ya...and you know that! Mwah! :)

*TIGHTEST HUG IN THE WORLD TO YOU*

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