Dear Mom...!!

Dear Mom,

I always wanted to know
How much you love me
Staying awake through the night
I cried for that love

That love
That I wanted to see in your eyes
I never saw it ever
Why mom? Why?

Why do you make me cry
Can't you see the pain in my eyes?
I know you know my pain
Still you never hold my hand
My tears all in vain!

Hold me dear Mom
You mean the world to me
Let me share your worries
Will I ever see your love
Raining on Me?

Will you let me confide in you?
A moment of happiness
A single moment of bliss
Is all that I desire!

When I try to hug you next

Please do not push me away
Let me rest in peace there
Because that is my world
My world to stay!

- Your Daughter!

Fly away with freedom :)

I write this post not out of frustration, but out of sheer understanding of WHAT I AM. It might surprise you guys but it took me time to make myself understand that rather than being sad because I am not the sort of person that my friends want me to be, I should understand that if 5 or 6 people hate me, I have a 100 more to love me for what I am!

You say I am to be blamed if I don't fit in properly into a so-called extraordinary group of yours? I don't think I should be blamed after all for what I think you all did to me! When will some people understand that I cannot be like them? If you think I don't match up to your standards, its alright! After all no one is that dependent on anybody! Right??

You cannot blame Usha Utthup for not singing like Shreya Ghoshal, can you?? Nor can you blame Romesh Powar for not playing like Sachin Tendulkar! Right?? Hah! How dumb!! And I kept blaming myself for it all this while.

Sometimes it is just so better to let go of things.
We have a habit of clinging on to things. We indulge so much in emotions that we somehow turn our backs to practicality! Emotions are good, but not at the expense of hurting yourself. People may not necessarily understand you all the time - why you did it, what you did etc. We, for that matter at least I, always think of giving it one more try - one more try to strike a chord with the other person, one more try to keep him/her happy, but all I end up doing is getting hurt and still getting up to give it a try ONE MORE TIME! It is better at times to realize that you are not the one for this. I can't let someone rule on me!

I have been a philanthropist all my life, but now I feel the need to change! I want to live for myself, my family and the ones whom I love. I don't want to be hurt all the time when I am trying so hard to bring a smile to your face!

Life is tough, a lot more tougher for me now! I have to take every expectation in my stride and I have to fulfill them! I might disappoint a few, but that would always have a reason!

I always wondered Why ME? May be certain things are better left unanswered. And that is what life teaches you! Take everything that comes your way...disappointments, happiness, love, failures, success, pain...everything! Set yourself free...! Trust me on this...you will only see yourself changed for the better! :)

P.S.: You might end up feeling that I am oh so sad, but duh!! You are wrong! I am so very happy that I rediscovered so many things about myself!

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Lost!!

Your thoughts slowly creep
As I toss and turn in the sleep,
That walk on the beach
The happiness beginning to seep!


The dreams we saw
Of a happy tomorrow,
Once they were real
Once when you were here!


My life now colorless
To live I fight each day,
The withered soul
I wish I had you with me, i pray!


Why did you teach me how to smile
When you had to take it all away,
Should I blame it on you
Or should it be considered my mistake?


True was my love for you
You still wandering in my thoughts,
And you know what they say
Better not to have loved than to have loved and lost!!

Congrats Dear Poetic Princess :)

Dearest Poetic Princess,


Through this post I take the opportunity to congratulate you on reaching this milestone of 100 posts!!


Wow!! What a journey it was...isn't it??

Its not been very long since I know you but reading your writes has been a wonderful experience for all of us!


You are such a sweetheart!! The 145+ followers' count makes it all the more evident.


May God keep our Poetic Princess happy always. May that smile never fade away!!

Your writes teach me a lot...they really do!! So, keep writing...!!

Today you've posted your 100th one, and no soon will that count jump to 200th. :)

So glad to have you as my friend. May you be the reigning Queen of the blog world. May you grow with every passing day. May God be kind to you.


Thank you so much for all the awards you honoured me with!
This is for you Kajal -


Love and hugs,


Artz!! :)

Thanksgiving No. 2 ... SEBY!

*Coughs*

*Coughs again*

*Music plays*

I proudly present to you, ladies and gentlemen, Mr.Seby John!!! No, no, no...not the Security Exchange Board of India! :P

I met him three years back...it was his freshers' party. I was his senior in college. There was a classmate of mine, lets say A, who came running to me and told me about this guy...she was telling me how cute he is...and she went blah blah blah about him. I was not attending college just when the new session had started...so I just had no idea about who Seby was!

Then I was told that A was trying to test her luck and she had tried striking a conversation with Seby and she pronounced his name as Saby...he striked back saying... "Its not Saaaaby...my name is Seby...Seby John!" Whoa!! James Bond style...not bad! I still wonder how A would have felt...lol! She was trying her best to start a conversation with the so-called new kid on the block...and he stops her right then!! Anyways, lets continue with the Thanksgiving now.

Hmm...as far as my memory goes, he is the one whom I loved like my own kid. I could never and I still can never see something happening to him. During my college days, he was the most precious possession of mine! As I just said, it was almost as if I POSSESSED HIM or may be as if HE WAS MINE. :P

May be I was stupid, but I know Seby understands why I felt that way!

When we had just started talking, I realised that we hit off immediately. Being a sort of person who gets uncomfortable in front of strangers, I did not even realize how everthing had turned around.

He is one emotionless wreck...nope, may be that is what some people feel! Outwardly an emotionless wreck may be! But all those 'revelation sessions' we had during our late night conversations...wow! Thank God! I know, he aint a robot!

Chocolate boy kinds with a super cute lover boy image...yes, that is what he looks like!

I am not in touch with any of my college friends after I graduated. But this is one guy whom I cannot do without. I have cried a million times whenever he fought with me. I've laughed a zillion times when I was with him. I never knew what life had in store for me...glad to know it was him!

I know how possessive we are about each other, the amount of love we hold in our hearts!

Once there was a fight in my college which had me and him involved in it. I tried my best to support him and guess what guys, at 4.45 AM in the morning I had this guy messaging me. He messaged me this -

"Yaar Aarthi, neend nahi aa rahi...teri yaad aa rahi hai :(

You've supported me so much. Agar aaj tu nahi hoti toh sab meri &%#2% maar dete.

Pata nahi how am I gonna make up for everything that you've done for me. I'm surviving in this college only because of you. Thanks a lot.

You dunno how much you mean to me, may be I wont be able to express either. Muah, bye!"

And people call him inexpressive and emotionless...is he??

Atleast for me, he is not!

He was my bestestest friend, my support system! I was myself in front of him and he loved me that way!

Dear My Beast, this is what I still feel for you. I was never able to do without you and its still the same. You mean a lot to me...it'll always be this way! Please lets not fight anymore! :)

P.S.: Sorry for that message thing :P

Love you tonnez!! Muah! :)

P.P.S.: That the worst pic of ours. But its okayy! After all, its just the feelings that matter! :P

I'm Waiting! :(

I'm waiting
I'm waiting for this plant to grow
That one day it becomes a tree
And from all the burdens it sets me free!

Twenty girls I liked
Twenty Five I proposed
Thirty slapped me
And therefore I tied this rope!

You know not the pain
We hold in our little hearts
The way we run after you
And you make us see the stars!

Damn all these damsels
I've now decided
Agonised is my soul
I feel alienated!

I trusted in you
Your 'No's have hurt me
All my savings
You've made me spend all the money!

I water this plant every day
Let it grow
And to end my agony
I've tied this rope!

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The Second Childhood...!

Just when I was a kid,
I never felt the burden of any responsibility,
Everything was so filled with innocence,
Everything full of sanctity.

When I grew up,
Life was never again simple,
Such rough patches,
My skin's wrinkle.

Today I stand alone,
Like an oak tree,
I see these children,
Climbing the mountains in a spree.

I've lost all my glory,
Lost the twinkle in the eye,
The dull remembrance of everything,
All frozen up within.

Tonight as the sun sets,
When I am growing old by another day,
I have a wish in my heart,
Do not cry, just remember me all day!

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