Pragmatic Utopia

...Everything that was once a part of what I called 'My Life'

2011-07-15T14:07:00.001+05:30

"Remember those walls I built,
Well, baby they're tumbling down,
And they didn't even put up a fight,
They didn't even make up a sound..." ...Says Beyonce in her outstanding track called 'HALO.'

Everything is just going to amount to something really big in the coming few days. REALLY BIG!

Yes, I am here almost after eternity. Someone has been forcing me a lot to write. But, I am here not because of that someone today. I am here because I really have to take it all out of me. I really feel the need to 'vent' it out on someone. I do not want anyone to tell me - 'Do this or do that.' I really need someone who can just listen to me. And, no one else better than this blog (which was my Utopian World) can come to my rescue.

There is just nothing that is permanent. Every thing, person, emotions and situations undergo the stage of transition. Trust me, the recent best understanding of mine... there is nothing that is YOURS forever. People will break your heart (and yes, this time, they didn't even make up a sound), you would be royally screwed from all sides, no one would ever tell you what to do, there would be no running away, no tears and no comforting hugs always by your side!

Sometimes it is better to be YOU... alone, struggling but happy! ...at least you don't owe a goddamn explanation to every person on earth. It can be so difficult at times to stand someone who just knows how to be stubborn, to dominate and wants you to sacrifice your dreams so that his dreams become a reality!

Male chauvinistic society, I tell you.

It would have been much better if I was born a Muslim. I would at least have valid reasons for me being this way!

And today, you are also going away. For the better, of course, I trust.

I do not have a problem. I am not complaining. I really wanted everything to be good. But now, I am prepared...to see, what is really going to come in front of me. Because now, I have learnt it the hard way that... this is LIFE! ...No dependency, no hard feelings, no more crying. Wish you luck!

Pathetic it may be, but this is Reality! ...and this time, I am not running away from this.

Take Care people.

More rants coming your way!

Nyx

'H' Effect...! ;)

2010-08-28T17:48:00.000+05:30

Stupid sms'es, cuppycake ringtone, coming to gmail, writing a post ... its all for him these days! Seriously... I mean, I never thought I would be so crazy about someone.

It is really funny to see that every second if there is something I expect is him...! His calls, his sms'es, his pings on gmail... his voice... his eyes... his smile...! The whole scenario... me walking on a Delhi road with a 'south-indian' guy talking in Tamil and people staring at me... this gave me jitters! But today, I walk on Delhi roads proudly, clinging to his arm while he hugs me tight, talking to him in Tamil and just not bothered about people staring at us as if Tamilians are aliens. :)

This guy has changed me... seriously. I never wanted to put my head into the work I was being forced to do. But today, my dad (or should I say...my BOSS) is so happy with my work... it's all because of him. 'He' is the reason behind this. I saw him working...putting his heart and soul into it and that is when I realized, after all working doesn't make horns grow on our heads. It's all for good.

Even small things have changed... :) ...I have been too much into Tamil music these days. I was never even bothered about A.R. Rahman or Harris Jayaraj creating masterpieces down south. But today, I listen to all these songs and yes, I like it. Kajal has been replaced by an eye-liner. Yea, that sure is funny! But, this is what it is today...only because he likes it this way. 'Dont-you-dare-mess-with-me' attitude is being replaced by 'I-don't-care-about-you' and 'I-have-the-best-guy-in-the-world' attitude.

I was always bothered about those small things that disappointed me. They completely spoiled my day. He taught me how to be more adjusting in nature, how to accept things and not to crib about it. I know that he does want to pamper me like a kid, but most of the times... he avoids doing it just to make me stronger to face this world. I know how much I mean to him. He means the world to me.

The first time I saw him panic seeing a cut on my finger and a little blood on it, the moment my eyes woke up to see him sleeping with his mouth a little open ... I lost myself to him. It all began then... till forever.

It's called the 'H' Effect...!

Love you Mr. Srihari Menon.

Yours,

Wifey!

Dedicated to HIM... :)

2010-08-06T13:25:00.000+05:30

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end... I am sure a lot of you would agree to this little something.

I have been in love before, I have had my share of infactuations too ... this time it's the same, nothing different. Something that has completely changed are...the times. I am happy now. I have evolved as a better person after all that happened in the last few days. June' 10 will be a biiiiiiiiggg part of my life forever. The owner of this little space is NOT single anymore, forever! :) :) ... Happily Committed, yes... that too ... FOREVER! His name is Srihari Menon... :D

I never expected this... it all came all of a sudden. Trust me guys, this is for the better...rather the best.

Better late than never, I realized... Life is about trusting your feelings, taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the momories, learning from the past, and realizing ... people change.

This post is completely dedicated to my guy... Srihari.

Baby,

I am in love with you! :) ... I promise to give you all that you have dreamt of.

I'll always be by your side till the very end. I'll smile when you smile, and feel all the pain you do... if you cry a single tear, I promise i'll cry too. I have understood that sometimes what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you had always wanted. Thank you for coming into my life, taking my hands into yours and teaching me to walk happily towards what we are destined.

I have fought with you so many times, have even made you shed tears... but I was stupid... didn't know how much I meant to you. I have changed now, for the better... for you. Trust me, it's all fine now.

I never believed you when we fought and you said you'll keep me happy... when you hugged me and said i'll wipe your tears. But now, there is no one I trust more than you. You belong ONLY to me and I ONLY to you.

I wanna grow old with you... see the first wrinkle under those chinkey kinda eyes... be the one to hold you whenever you need someone, see our babies growing and in the end, wanna die in your arms!

Love you always... :)

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Guys, this is something that I wanted to share with all of you because you all are an integral part of what makes me ME! :)

Love you all,

Artz!

???...!!!

2010-05-04T19:38:00.001+05:30

Life can sometimes be a bumpy ride, sometimes a straight path, sometimes too curvy, sometimes a disaster but sometimes, just luckily, a FAIRY-TALE.

I have been out of the virtual world for quite a long time now. Trust me, I feel happy to know that I DO NOT FEEL INCOMPLETE. I am happy... I am still eating... still growing fat... still sleeping...and most importantly, still BREATHING! But there is one thing that keeps reminding me of the virtual world... an amazing set of friends that it has given me. I happened to meet a few blogger friends last weekend... it was a super feeling as usual. Sometimes I just wonder (happily) how happy my virtual friends make me. He he ... ok I guess I can stop grinning now. :D

Know what guys, last few months have been...like a roller-coaster ride for me. I attended a family friend's wedding and her brother fell in looooouuuuuvvvvve with me. No, that isn't good. He is one of the most irritating person I have ever come across...probably a sadist of sorts. Yuck! He is 30 and he wants me to marry him... I should have booked him under the Child Molestation case. :P
Then, I happened to meet Nuchu. Yes, she is in India... super cute she looks I tell you. And to talk about Hafsa (Nuchu's niece)...GOD...Angel would be an understatement for her. She is the MOST BEAUTIFUL female I have ever seen. She is just 8 months old? Woohoooo.... and guess what, the moment she was in my arms, she didn't want anyone else. No, not out of love... but she found me to be a DUNLOP mattress sorts. Lol... yes! She was playing and smiling and laughing in my arms. Yay! Many people wanted to lift her, but she was just not ready to go to anyone... AWW... ;D

One of my friends is getting married to the guy she loves...yay yay yay. that makes me super happy! All the best girl...Keep Rocking!

That's all as an update from me to you... Love to all.

WHAT??

2010-02-09T19:09:00.002+05:30

Last night was an eye-opener sorts for me. I have a reason to support what I felt.

As any normal person complains, I too have my set of complaints. I do think and brood over them. I do cry thinking about my problems. I do suddenly feel the urge to do something that would bring all my problems to an end and I do admit that I have a habit of 'sometimes' blaming someone else for my problems. It is a matter of shame that in the last few months, I have blamed my parents for the problems I face.

I know that what I felt, was the biggest mistake I did ever in my life. Last night there was one surprise in store for me. My dad called. No, that is not the surprise I was talking about. My dad called and he was talking to mom. While talking about other things, there was one thing he said, "We earn quite a good income, and inspite of that I have never done anything for my daughter. Every time I plan to do something for her, God gives me some problem or the other." My mom told me that he sounded to be in pain.

I could not sleep last night. Realization dawned on me. I really did think abour how hard he works to bring us out of all the problems we are going through. I have never done anything for him. I 'work' or may be just pretend to do so for the sake of it. But I hardly care of my work brings any returns or not. I have been living an awful meaningless life. I have just blamed my dad all this while. I have never helped him.

But, that soul (My Father) has always taught me lessons...those lessons which has only got me better.

I am sorry dad to have let you down till date. I promise to work hard. I promise to hear it one day from you that you are proud of me. After all that happened yesterday, I can just say one thing -

'Expect the worst and the best is yet to happen.'

Last week I wrote a post. I promised to speak the truth for a week. Trust me guys, it was difficult... way too difficult. I did try my best. And to my surprise I could manage it well. But I did fail... three times in that week. Still, I learnt the art of being honest.

This week, am not putting the blame on anybody for anything. I am going to take the responsibility for my actions...whether good or bad. Even if the worst happens, it is only going to make me strong and capable of handling everything that comes my way.

Best Wishes,

Nyx!

OUTRIGHTLY (HILARIOUS + SERIOUS)

2010-02-03T12:07:00.003+05:30

I am back from the so called period of 'exile' that I had forced myself into.

Something is just pissing me off these days...something or the other. Lol... i just don't know why. But amidst all this, there was something that I saw on t.v. which can be called as OUTRIGHTLY HILARIOUS. Any guesses about what it could have been?

It was - RAHUL MAHAJAN KA SWAYAMVAR. ROFLMAO!

The girls, the set-up, RAHUL MAHAJAN... OMG! I so remember what happened in that episode. All the girls had to write a diary for Rahul. A girl wrote something in the purest form of Hindi and she quoted to Rahul that he was as capable as Lord Krishna who had 16,108 wives. Lol. Lol.

I really think NDTV IMAGINE has gone NUTS! How about featuring my swayamvar on your channel eh? Jeez!!

Moving away from something that was outrightly hilarious, its time to talk about something that is outrightly serious.

It feels so good to have people around us...friends and family. They are our real strength. I recently found a source of strength...a new friend (a friend for life). That person is my twin, in the real sense of the word. We are going through the same phase of life and I am so glad that we are coming out of that phase holding hands - TOGETHER!

In front of the whole wide world, I welcome you - ESTHER EVELYN to my sweet little world. :)

*A welcome hug*

Life is so colorful, isn't it. Yes, you cannot ignore the shade that I hate the most - BLACK.
Every person who walks into your life is different, every minute is different... and in each passing moment, we have learnt how to lie to ourself. Yes, you got that right.

We really find no trouble in committing something that we cannot do. For example, how about promising a friend for a lunch with her and you know you have some other commitment that day? You know you can't make it right? Then why commit?

This is how it is. Every moment we do something like this, we are being untrue to our own self as well as the other person. Being untrue to our own self hardly makes a difference to us today right? Because we see no consequence of such an action of ours. BUT, something that is so startling is the fact that not being true to yourself is day-by-day becoming our habit. Such a habit can do no good. All it will lead us to one day is a point where we would be breaking the trust that someone has on us. Trust, a bond , is very flimsy. You need to handle with care. As they say, it takes a second to break the trust but years to build it; and once broken, there is hardly a way to rebuild it.

Think about it for a second. Try keeping a check... for say a week.

Check how many times do you say something that you just don't mean. In the virtual world, to which we are so used to, how many times do you end up saying 'Awwwwww....baby you are the sweetest!' to someone...who, according to you, probably doesn't deserve this? Yes, this happens. It happens with me too.

I am trying to change it all. I am under a self check project and I need some like-minded people who would be ready to take up this challenge along with me. For a week, I am not saying or doing something that I don't mean. Are you ready?? :)

THE LUCKY CHINESE TAG : THE EMINENT EIGHTS

2009-12-30T19:02:00.000+05:30

Thank you Leo (or Vinu, as I fondly call him) for the tag. As the year FINALLY draws to an end, this would perhaps be my last post till the 1st day of the New Year! :)

8 Shows I Like To Watch :
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
90210
When I Met Your Mother
MTV Roadies
V Rock On
America's Got Talent
Hannah Montana
Suite Life

8 Favorite Place To Eat & Drink :
McDonalds
Pizza Hut
Big Chills
Purani Dilli
Keventers'
Banana Leaf
Gianis
Chinese Restaurants

8 Things I Look Forward To :
LOSING a bit of weight
Change my hairdo asap
Work with more dedication
Save more money
Make more friends
Change my wardrobe
Write more and more
To Travel

8 Things That Happened Yesterday :
My aunt returned from Hrishikesh
Started reading The Alchemist
Tried to write on a topic for the n-th time but was unsuccessful
Cooked good food after a long time
Had 5 chapathis in a row
Slept in the afternoon
Behaved amazingly stupid for not having any plans for the New Year
Fought with my dad for not talking to me since morning

8 Things I Love About Winter :
We don't sweat in winters
Can have loads of soups and tea
Sleeping under a warm blanket
Cuddling
Chill (of the winter and the fan!)
Ice-creamsssss
Fog
Cute children (all dressed in bright woolens)

8 Things On My Wishlist :
An APPLE I-Pod
Good meaningful writings from me
Making great friends
LOSE weight
Learn something new
Wish my bitch gives puppies this time
A Labrador
Want to gift my mom gold bangles

8 Things I Am Passionate About :
Reading Books
Music
Writing
Gaining Knowledge
Learning my work
Chocolates
Helping people
Facebook

8 Words / Phrases I Often Use :
Yay!
WTF
Let that Be
Geeeee :D
Hmm
Awww
Darn
Nope

8 Things I Learnt From The Past :
People will know the real you one day or the other.
Let no one tell you what you cannot do.
There will be people who would constantly try to bring you down.
The real strength lies WITHIN YOU.
God is to be believed.
You cannot run away from your mistakes. Learn from them and do not repeat them again.
Friends give you a lot of strength.
Actions speak louder than words.

8 Places I Would Love To Go/Visit/See :
Bangalore
Dubai
Malaysia
London
Old Trafford
Beijing
Mumbai
Disney Land

8 Things I Currently Need/Want :
An Apple I-Pod
A PlayStation
Winter Clothing
Amazing Candy Vending Machine
Soft drink fountain
Understanding people around me
The freedom to live my life my way
Chocolates

The first five who comment on this post would be required to do this tag.

Thanks!

Here is wishing each one of you a very happy new year. May God bless you with all the success and happiness you deserve! Have a fabulous day. Stay Safe! :)

Tag and Awards!

2009-12-28T12:19:00.000+05:30

Thank you Shravan for the Awards and this tag. :)

1.What is your current obsession?
Facebook!

2. What are you wearing today?
White tshirt and blue jeans

3. What’s for dinner?
Its lunch time now... :P

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
Went to buy milk.

5. What are you listening to right now?
an SMS beep!

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
Shravan, a cute brother.

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
Delhi.

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
A loose tshirt and a capri and an Air-conditioner!

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Nowhere!

10. Which language do you want to learn?
Prolly...French!

11. What’s your favourite quote?
Let no one in the world tell you what you cannot do.

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
Santa

13. What is your favourite colour?
Blue, Black and White

14. What is your favourite piece of clothing in your own closet?
A beautiful salwar-kameez

15. What is your dream job?
Something I had wanted to do since very long... write to be read!

16. What’s your favourite magazine?
India Today

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
Beauty Parlour :P

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
Wearing something that you are not comfortable in.

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
Victoria Beckham

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
Layers

21. What are you going to do after this?
Think about another blog post

22. What are your favorite movies?
Lord of the Rings, Kal Ho Na Ho...

23.How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
3...Facebook, Blogger, Google

24. What inspires you?
The thought of living a happy and contented life.

25. Give us three styling tips that always work for you:
Kajal, Lip Gloss and a Perfume.

26. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)?
Wonder when will a day come when ill be happy with whatever I have in my closet! :P

27. Coffee or tea?
Tea.

28. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
Cry myself to sleep.

30. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
Scribblings (By Freelancer), Enigmatic Rantings (By Sowmiya) and Figments of Imagination (By Leo).

31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
Chocolate Brownie with Ice-cream.

32. Favorite Season?
WINTER!

33. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
Mix Vegetable, Dal and Rice...(Because that is what is being cooked right now at my place.)

34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
Smile at them.

35. What are you afraid of the most?
Lizards... :P

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
A hug.

37. My Questinon: What is the first thing you do once uve booted ur system?
Open Facebook, Load Google Talk.

Rules for those who are tagged:
Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace onequestion that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one morequestion to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.

I would love to pass on the tag and award to :
Leo, Sowmiya and Rosh.

Another brainless rant... :P

2009-12-17T12:19:00.000+05:30

Well, oh well... it's been a pretty long time since I landed here last.

Many reasons I have that forced me to stay away from my Utopian World - to begin with, I went on a family tour to Tirupati...needless to say, it was fun. Second, I went to Bangalore, met Prats, Abhrajit and someone new...Abhishek Maiti; the last...fever, cold and sore throat!

There has been a lot to think over in the last few days... I want to be a journalist (Any journo listening?), I want a Louis Vuitton bag, I want to revive the blogger in me, I want to earn big time, I want to be happy, I want to go abroad, I want to get married, have kids, stay happy...phew!!

Alright, let me have the privilege to cut my own crap and begin with some sensible 'gyaan' for you guys! o_O

Tirupati... a heavenly place! Lord Venkateswara (or Lord Balaji) rests over seven mountains. The place is called Tirumala. A pilgrimage, where thousands of people flock to just catch a glimse of the Lord. Mind you, you can just catch a glimse of him! When I came out after seeing him, all I knew was that all the time that I was there in the Garbagraham (the main spot where Lord Venkateswara is), I had my eyes fixed on him. I cam out with tears in my eyes. The only thing I felt at that particular moment was that now since I have seen him and mentally prostrated in front of him, all my worries will be taken care by him. He is the wire-puller and so he knows, what I want.

People from different states (even from North India) were chanting the name of the Lord while standing in queues. But... what was irritating was that... even while standing in the queue, the people were just not considerate towards the females. They were pushing each and everyone so badly while making their way towards Garbagraham. My maternal aunt accompanied us to Tirupati. She was close to 55 years old. I saw ladies who were close to 70 years old, being pushed by the uncles around.Sad... someone needs to teach them decency!

Anyways guys...these days, I don't know why, I am just not able to gather all my intellect and try and push myself to write something worth a read. Hope to be back soon with something that would ring a bell in someone's head.

Nyx!

I Am Back! ;)

2009-12-03T18:51:00.001+05:30

Alright guys, December begins! I am back here...

I've been out of blogsville for almost a month. In this one whole month, I noticed a lot of things, my imagination was at its best and also, I learnt many new things! Good? Yea!

I am not happy these days because of a lot of things. Be decent and don't ask me why's, what's and how's. Keep them to yourself. But anyway, I trust God and I am sure, he'll lead me through this. Second, facebook is keeping me quite busy for no reason... (Yea, it doesn't even pay me for being so loyal...MARK, are you listening?)

Last weekend, I went to my friend's place and while I was on my way, I got stuck in a traffic jam... typical Delhi! What caught my stupid wandering mind's attention was different people in different mode of transports... everything different, but just one thing in common. Guess what? All of them were busy looking out of their windows. I saw each one of them gazing out of their windows, thinking about something...or may be, nothing! Many people were with their family and to my surprise, no one was talking to each other! All were silent...

Why are we all like this? Why don't we want to spend some time with our loved ones? Why can't we just share a laugh with them? Are we really that busy or is it that we just claim to be so? I know some questions just do not have an answer.

But, some questions have their answers hidden in them. For instance, when I was in school, my schoolmates from my apartment always waited for our bus outside the apartment gate. Every morning a lady had a duty to make it a point to ask me the same question. Just when she saw me dressed in my school uniform, waiting for the bus, she used to ask me, "Beta, school ja rahe ho?" (Translation : Child, are you going to school?) And obviously my reaction, always, was...WTF! My mind always mumbled to itself, "No, am going to the circus!" Phew...!!

I also noticed one more thing... ladies can never stop gossiping! They love gossips more than their husband. Don't know when will this stop.

Anyways, I am back! And I missed you all...

Love,

Nyx! ;)

Good Old Days!

2009-11-25T17:42:00.000+05:30

Alright, so I am back with a post... after a long time indeed!

Know what guys? Whatever it is, it is damn cute! ... the thing is... my dad is attending his School Alumni Meet soon! And the best part of the story is that recently he received a mail from his classmate and you should have looked at the smile on his face... stretching from ear to ear. He was looking very cute. He is turning 51 on Nov 30th and at this age, when he got to know about his schoolmates etc., it was the return of good times for him. Touchwood...

Without drifting away from the topic, I was just thinking, how would I feel when I would get to meet my classmate when I would be, say, 50 years old. Awesome!! I am already giggling like a kid. I saw the kid inside my dad come alive today. It certainly would be feeling amazing, isn't it?

How eventful that Alumni Meet would be! A group of friends... talking about their life after school, about their family, about their profession, remembering those days when they hated their Mathematics professor, etc. Wow! Life is beautiful at times, isn't it? I have a schoolmate - Nidhi. Say I meet her when am around 50 years of age, completely unexpected! We try hard to recognize each other and when we do, how would the reaction be?... like this? ...

*Mouth wide open*

Nidhiiiii? Oh my god... hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii... how have you been???

Every word, every sentence would be exclamatory in nature! Right?

Life sometimes presents you with such pleasant surprises. Pure bliss! All the best dad for your Alumni Meet... hope you have an awesome time.

Love,

Your Daughter!

Guys, tell me how would you feel if you meet your classmate in a completely unexpected circumstance after may be 30 years? Pour in your views!

Blog Silence

2009-10-22T10:28:00.000+05:30

Hello!!!!!

I am in Chennai ... yes, you are right! I am writing this blog post just to let you people know that this blog... My Space... PRAGMATIC UTOPIA... might not be updated for quite long now. You might not find me online for may be a month at a stretch till I come to find you...to talk to you.

I am moving to Chennai for an year. Life is destined to be pathetic I suppose... but either ways, I have to deal with it. That is my life.

Toodles!

NYX

Unsurprisingly surprised!

2009-10-19T11:32:00.001+05:30

Sometimes we know everything, still pretend to know not a word! Why?
Sometimes we want something to happen and still react as if it shook the ground underneath! Why?

‘Alice, I need to say something to you…and somehow I feel, you know it.’

‘What is it George? I have no idea what you’re talking about.'

‘Well, Alice, it has been quite sometime since we became friends, but since last few days I feel that it is just not friendship. I am… I am in love with you Alice.’

A big smile wrapped it up at the other end of the call. She knew it all along. She knew it that this was coming. She loved him too, but you know what she says? This…

‘OMG! OMG George, I just can’t believe this.’
:)
:)

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What My Pet Can Do For Me...

2009-10-16T11:14:00.000+05:30

I own a Dachshund... her name is Ginger, and I am sure you want to see her... so there you go!

Basically, this is a super random post, and you can guess that by the topic, can't you? Ha ha...
Why I am writing this is because I feel that all of us need a pet! Yes, you heard it right. You think you don't? You are wrong. I know many of you would be scared of pets...cats, dogs or whatever! I was the very same. I was terrified whenever my brother's dog landed on my lap. I would always end up screaming like an idiot. Lol. Sometimes it so happened that deliberately, to make me scream, my brother would suddenly lift his dog and put it on my lap. Hah, what stupidity. A few years later, my brother's bitch gave birth to puppies, and I gathered guts to lift them for the first time. Needless to say, I was super nervous. With time, I picked them up with ease, started playing with them. The matter of surprise was that I brought one home. We named her Ginger. :)

The day I started raising her up, all my notions changed. Now, I just love dogs. Yes, it is me who is saying this. We have heard people saying that dogs are very trustworthy. They surely are. Those little things they do can just take off all the worries that are inside you. They have that in them! Once we had to go on a vacation. Ginger knew it that we were going and she so wanted us to stay back...and guess what she did... this -

She ran and got onto the bag and sat there for almost half an hour... barking at everyone whosoever was coming to pick her up from there! Sweet.

My mom says that she is my younger sister, damn. That get my nerves ticking I tell you! But, when I don't see her for a day, it feels incomplete. She is now a part of my family. Sometimes when she does something wrong and she knows that she'll be scolded for it, she just runs under the sofa and does not come out from there till the evening. She is really damn intelligent.

Each one of you need a pet. Know why? Simple, because all of us are tensed one way or the other. We do different stuff to ward off our tensions... watch tv, play games, talk to a friend... But if you watch closely, except for talking to a friend, every other thing just aggravates our tensions. We tend to watch television, but all that idiot box provides us is some scene that we can relate to and end up feeling pathetic. Since the day I have Ginger with me, it has never been that difficult. The way she behaves, the way she does all those little cute things can just get me smiling at any time of the day.

So, that is just about it. I feel having a pet is quite essential and I am glad, I have one... or should I say... THE CUTEST ONE!

You Have It In You!

2009-10-12T16:32:00.005+05:30

Ok, with thoughts of ups and downs crowding my head (Oh, don't get me wrong here you naughty minds... When I say UPS and DOWNS, I mean mood swings), all of you surely need to bear with me! :P

I really am thinking about what all are the things that lift my spirit when I feel low... when I feel that my life has been ONE BIG DISASTER or may be when I feel that every other person in my life has tested his Penicillin on me! :P
Each one of us have our own set of things that can get us in our best of spirits after a dark phase, isn't it? So, what is it that you do when you are not feeling good? When it comes to me, I act really weird...and yes, I have no issues in accepting this fact as well. I cry a lot... (Lot more than Rupali Ganguly perhaps) or sometimes I can go on laughing (More than our very own Siddhu paaji)... I sing real loud (Louder than Mudvayne)... I play like a kid doing weird stuff (Weirder than the kid in the movie 'Home Alone')... I go for a walk alone... and see all those underprivileged people in my neighbourhood, just to get a feeling that my life ain't that big a trouble.
All of you (those who read me) are my well-wishers, I truly agree. But you know what guys, sometimes I want you to let me be me here and write what I feel. I don't want that shoulder sometimes which would re instigate that feeling in me that yes, my life is a pool of *&%@. Instead, I want you to tell me how did you find my write up to be. Was it good, average or bad! :)

When I celebrated my 100th, a few people felt that I should redo it. But, if I am not writing here about what I am actually feeling, then this is not MY UTOPIA. We generally tend to write, say and do things that are socially acceptable. But guys, this is my space, isn't it? I have all the right to be ME here. If I am low, you would be able to see how weak I can get... and if I am strong, then you would know how strong I am.

Al right, without much of deviation from the main story, lets get back to business. :P
In my previous post I talked about the phase when one feels low. And with this post, I bring to light the things one generally does to get out of that phase.
Some people go shopping...an expensive one at that to get their mind off the thing that is bothering them. Some people fall into the 'cry and crib' category...they just cry their heart out. Some people just get into a nutshell...they go into hibernation (try it out, its good). I sing... I sing real loud and sensible too... one song that can get me back into form is 'Yeh Honsla' from the movie Dor...

Raah Pe Kante Bikhre agar,

Uspe to phir bhi chalna hi hai,
Shaam Chhupale Suraj magar,
Raat ko ek din Dhalna hi hai,

Rut ye tal jayegi,
Himmat rang layegi,
Subha phir aayegi.

Whenever I listen to this song, I feel that nothing is impossible! :)

Trust me guys, there is nothing that you can't do. And as Will Smith says to his son in the movie The Pursuit of Happiness, DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU WHAT YOU CAN'T DO. NOT EVEN ME!

You have it in you to do anything and everything you want to do. Best things are always for you. You are the blessed one. Just believe in this!

Stay Happy! Stay Blessed!

Give me what I want...

2009-10-11T17:42:00.001+05:30

She sat alone... Whining... Crying... Her eyes red, full of tears, her forehead resting on her palm. Alone in a big house she sat, with no one who could wipe her tears!

"What have I done?" she asked herself.

This was not the first time she felt this way. Time and again life bestowed her with pessimism. But she knew...she loved being happy. She wanted someone to pamper her, someone to lift her up, someone who could be a kid when she wanted to play a big smart girl and someone who would keep a watch over her when she becomes a kid while rolling down a slide! If this is what she wanted...why was she alone today... all by herself?? This loneliness was killing her.

Do YOU dread such a day in your life?? I DO!!

Guess what... there is some bad news and there is some good news as well. Lets end this post with a happy note...so that means the bad news comes first!

The bad news is that... EACH ONE OF US will see such a phase in our life when he/she will be alone... in the same situation that I described! When you would pick your phone to make just any random call and flip through your phonebook... you would find not even a single name you want to call. That is life! Strange, weird...you hate it... yet you want to live it each day. :)

Now the good news... EACH ONE OF YOU who sees himself/herself in such a situation can deal with it. Know how? Just be yourself and do what makes you happy. You get up and feel like crying? Cry...if that is what makes you happy! You get out on the road and you have 10 friggin bucks in your pocket and all you want is a bar of chocolate. Hah...don't mind... go get one! You know you have seen a lot of what you don't deserve and you also know that it's time to do what YOU want! You love that sparky YELLOW?? And you know... you would be looked down as an alien when you wear it? 'YELL OW'er them and go for it because if yellow was that bad a colour, why would someone even teach you in your kindergarten what YELLOW is?? :P

I know we can't always be SELFISH and live for yourself, but sometimes when nothing seems to go the right way... you need to do this! They say great things come in small packages. Two days of spending your life your way can give you an year full of satisfaction!

Live happily, Live Sensibly! :)

NYX!

My 100th...

2009-10-02T22:17:00.000+05:30

Hello people,

So, here I am with my 100th post!! Feels great surely... sometimes it gives me jitters thinking that I started blogging... blogging to just prove to someone that I can write... and then came my 10th post. I was so overjoyed!! Slowly my passion grew...I wrote more and I was read by a very few people... they became MY FRIENDS! Today, with 100 posts and 960+ comments, I feel happy...yet that is a saturated happiness. I am not feeling ecstatic! Yes, you guys heard that right. Usually the celebration posts I see… they are dripping with happiness... it might be real or fake. Today, I plan to write my heart out...whether it is dripping with happiness or with tears!

Thank you Sowmiya, Esther, Nabila, Abhrajit and Arun for writing my guest posts! They were surely amazing… as I had expected them to be. Before I start up with anything… this is a small something for all of you (each and everyone who knows me in the blog world). Please do accept...

Thank you guys for reading anything and everything I wrote here! Sometimes, what I wrote just did not make sense… yes, I notice that when I look back. But some of you read it and were so humble to also comment on it. Ha ha… Some of my friends shower me with appreciations about the way I write or the topics on which I choose to write… thank you! I have also received a few critical comments… for all those who made such comments; I thank you because its you who have helped me write even better!

I pray to write better with each day because blogging has become more of a habit now. Thank you for being with me through this journey!

Signing off,

NYX! (I would prefer you to remember me by this name.)

The Bundle of Happiness!

2009-09-29T15:57:00.003+05:30

There lived a cheerful girl down the lane,
Aarthi Venkatesh is her name,
But I prefer called her the bubbly Artz,
Happiness is her second name,
And a Pragmatic Utopia is where she prefers to stay!

A Lounge brought her to my life,
The Writer’s Hub was which made me recognize her,
Her writing forever and ever made me sigh a exclaim,
And my writings made her sigh in her own claim,
Part of the ‘Sigh Girls’ clan we soon became!

She wrote and wrote with that beautiful Florence,
And I read and read with that unknown quest,
Then came the Penguin-Grasshopper series,
And I wondered at the similar varies,
She reminded me of the time that I had lived in my past,
And then another angel made me realize,
How we all were each other’s Hora Crux!

Today this girl has matured to complete a celebration of a hundred,
And I again wish for her to soon reach her thousand,
I wish for her to write and write till infinity remains,
And spell the magic of words on the beauty of her surrounds,
Happiness or gloom, Misery or laugher, Romance or tragedy,
I wish her to be versatile in all forms in her power of the pen,
And I promise to read her even when the eyes became weak,
Even if I feeble to understand, I will still read and celebrate all her ways!

This is just a small way to tell you Artz about how special you and your writings are to me. I am sorry for being a bit late in this guest post but nevertheless I am here.

Since poetry is something which comes easy to me so I thought of composing one for you on this occasion (*hope it wasn’t too bad*)

Congrats on you 100th post and I wish you go on to blog infinite number of posts and reach the zenith here and in your life forever.

Best Wishes for everything in life!

Love you loads

Mwaaahz

Nabila

No FULL STOPS in Life…

2009-09-23T16:18:00.000+05:30

We meet a lot of people every day. Most of them are strangers who become our closest friends and some of them close to our hearts in no time. We lose some of them on temporary basis, and every so often it is permanent. Permanent loss is a very awkward notion to be in charge of. We don’t get the grip of moving ahead in life. We tend to rather suffer brokenness, loneliness, forlornness, haplessness, cheerlessness etc. Temporary loss relates to broken relations that can be repaired whereas permanent loss relates to death or in other respects for which there is no reparability.

Broken relations at times are because of one’s responsibility for something wrong or an oversight. We can try to renew it by taking up a chance. But it is not the same when we lose someone forever. Losing someone should never stop your life. It requires an earnest attempt to come out of something like this but there is a way to recollect the most amazing times spent with the one you’ve lost. This might make you feel better and brighter. Often time’s broken relations also do not have a solution. But bear in mind that there are people who are not even aware of “BEING LOVED BY SOMEONE”. You just have to realize the importance of your life. Make known to yourself that life is like a train journey, people who travel with you may get off the train at their own stations. You don’t really get down with them since you are destined elsewhere. So, keep moving on do not stop your life nor let loss take control over you. Be it permanent or temporary. Just be strong.

I know this post can relate to the situation some of you are in at the moment. It is just to convey that Life is a very important gift of God. If we neglect its value we are at a loss. We need to be strong at every point though it is really difficult to put in practice, but never ever let anything take control over your life particularly a temporary loss because there is always a CHANCE to make things better.

Thank you Aarthi for giving me a chance to post something I wanted to talk about since a very long time. Congratulations on completing 100 posts in your space.

Oodles of Love

Esther

She can't stop laughing still

2009-09-22T15:10:00.008+05:30

Her house is too far.
But the journey is merry.
Smiling and shiny.
Comes Artz riding the black pony.

I don’t know why she can’t keep
From laughing..
Is it me or is it my
Hilarious face

Maaaast says she
Maaaaast we say
And Maaaaast it was

Now her tummy is full
A little cute round
Burps me and you
A great big Chinese lunch
Out in the sun
Baby what to do?
Sparks in her eyes
She needs vodka now!

Sits down in Styx
In her rocking chair.
Can’t stop laughing still.
I can’t put a finger on why?
She is just happy I guess
She loves her drink.

“Oye Chotu”- she calls
She needs another peg.
“Maast”- I say
As I see the waiter run to serve

Time has come
To say goodbye
Good things never last long
“Don’t miss me too much
And cry a lot”
She can’t stop laughing still..
I can’t put my finger on why?

The Wind and The Butterflies... The Destiny.

2009-09-19T11:28:00.001+05:30

I don't believe in destiny or fate. But I like the conception behind it. The thought that some people... some time... some where... has to happen, cos its all preordained and this never tiring world oversees all these stipulations and guides us. The wind and the butterflies, with every breeze and flap striving hard to make that 'chance', a 'certainty'.

I've met Aarthi. I met her at nowhere. I've met her at some point where the binaries '1' and '0' missed a byte... A simple 'Hi' from her and a smiley :-) from me... and the billion different bits that is the web, took us in.

What are the odds of meeting a person who was born on the same exact day as me... Just 10 mins after I opened my puny mouth and made my first shrieking cry and announced my presence to this world... and she's named exactly after my own sister, 'Aarthi'. At first I even thought my own sis was playing a prank at me. he he...

But, even if I haven't started a blog... haven't joined the lounge... didn't even know she existed and our lives were two parallel lines, never to cross paths... The wind and the butterflies would have stretched the ends of the world, just to make the parallel lines arch a little... to brush atleast once along our long journey... just once to fulfill the pre-written prophesy.

A flashing wink from across a restaurant, when both of us are treating our friends on our b'day.... A wordless understanding 'Your's too ??'

A warm smile, exchanged on a temple, when both of us say the same birth star for the archana... silently conveying, 'Happy b'day to you too'

Yeah... We sure would have met. Some place... some time... some where... Thanks to the wind and the butterflies.

All things said and done... I haven't exactly 'met' her, till now. I hope I meet her before her next B'day... ;)

I initially thought of writing a story here. But, why present a story when the truth is far more captivating... and the words just 'flapped'...

When I said I don't believe in destiny, I lied. But, It wouldn't be lying if I hadn't know her.

P.S. - Congrats on the 100 writes Artz... Hope this Guest post was as much about you, as it was about me... Wishing you loads of happiness and luck... n thanks a million for the guest post opportunity... May the wind n butterflies be with you... guiding you unknowingly n forever.

MAGICAL MOMENTS

2009-09-17T23:28:00.000+05:30

Artz! She is one of my sweetest blogger friends. We got along very well after just a few chats. We never thought that we would meet so soon! It was a very quick meet. Though it was a very brief meeting , we talked a lot! We feel like we are soul sisters J Magic of time isn’t it?

I am not all that great a writer. I write random stuffs literally! So, when Artz invited me to do a guest post in her blog I was confused and I was (to frankly accept) afraid a bit too. I am a very impulsive person. Nobody can put my thoughts in one box and program my mind. I am an all let loose kind-of a thinker! So, the moment she asked me to write “Time” is what struck my mind instantly. I feel great to write the 95th post (Oh! I find silly reasons to celebrate :P now it is "Yay! Mine is 95th post!!!!!!!!)

Earlier I used to be very arrogant and a bratty gal arguing things. Long long ago so long ago my closest pal said something which I can never forget for a lifetime. We had arguments on this but little by little I realized he was true! Yes, he said “Time will heal you”. I said, “No way! Stop this crappy philosophy and get back to your work!” Now, today he doesn’t know what I am doing and I don’t know what he is doing. It’s all a magic of time. We thought we’ll never part but we parted and we are totally in different directions. When I look back, all I could remember about him is the statement which I mentioned above!!

Time is precious – is what I don’t want to tell because everyone knows that. I want to say time is MAGICAL. Yeah! It does wonders in a person’s life!

Sometimes we think that our friends will be with us forever but in reality they will not be! Sometimes we think that happiness last forever in our life! But life is not all that easy. It’s a cocktail of happiness, sad moments, tense moments and bitter experiences. To tackle all such things, the Almighty has gifted each of us with something called “Time”.

Time teaches us to commit mistakes and learn from the mistakes as well! Time will solve the problems that we face in our life. It makes us think profoundly. It might look like a situation is pressurizing us so much that we will be in the verge of breaking down but without our knowledge we come over it and smile! That is the magic of Time! Time will fly outside our window! It is in our hands to make the best use of it and learn all kind of lessons that it teaches to us! There is no point in repenting after letting your time drift off your hands! This is what I have realized of late.

Time gives us opportunities, chances, solutions, strength, experience, maturity, a balanced mind and everything we want. It’s in our hands to identify it and make the best use of it! We shouldn’t waste our time by spending a lot of time in thinking about our past and future. We should just live to the moment. This is because time and tide waits for none. There is no point in thinking about yesterday. At the same time, its never late than ever. If you’re not a person who doesn’t live the moment and keep planning for your future or sink in your past, please wake up and enjoy the moment.

Forget all your broken relationships, just extract the lessons you’ve learned out of them. Walk along with time instead of walking against it or way ahead of it! Life will be a paradise! Did I sound like a philosopher?? Well! I am not all that perfect! I myself get messed up many times for not understanding the magic time accomplishes! Only now am I learning, as I said, nothing late than ever. Start from today (not tomorrow), throw off all the grudges you have (I am dumping all my grudges in some dumpyard right now) and start to live the moment!

Was it all that boring? Come on, simple things always seem to be boring. But we got to accept the fact with a :) I think my post does make a sense to all of you :)

Thanks Artz for letting me write something in your space :) Guess I did some justice :) Love ya :)

Its Your Life, Make It Large!

2009-09-16T18:43:00.002+05:30

He ha ha ha ha...Ok... am sounding crazy! Actually, I just happened to log in to my orkut account... :) A lot of people talk about those weird friend requests they receive and I happened to receive one such request this morning... it read - "Hi Aarthi, this Rhoan (that meant Rohan) delguy (that meant guy from Delhi) wanna b my frands." Wah wah wah! ... Lolz... I have been lol-ing since then! :P

I have become very observant these days. At times I am so amazed when I find something so normal to be so peculiar. I mean to say that there are certain things that we do all day long, thinking that its 'my' characteristic... but after a few days, we see something similar in someone and end up feeling so eerie about it, isn't it?

A few years back, I was this chirpy, bubbly sort of a character. But today, I am not. People say I am a fighter, a very matured sort of a person... generally, it does not matter what they say, but honestly speaking, this time they are right. I belong to that section of people who are really very serious, do not prefer talking much and are constantly busy with some or the other thought. A few days back, this Mr.X told me that I have lost the spark that he saw in me a few months back. I completely agree with him! Yes, I have lost that spark in me... But for this, no one is to be blamed... Sometimes, things are not in our hand. Your life's incidents shape you the way you are! Life and the incidents design your caricature.

There are many people who might dislike you for some or the other reason... and we might find their reasons justified or futile. But, does that in any way, change his/her perspective towards you? It doesn't right? Recently, I have seen that a few people have turned their backs at me, without even listening to what I had to say... they might think that I am such an obnoxious sort of a girl, but then do I stop living because of what such people have to say? Certainly not... Life has many more reasons to worry or crib about other than this trivial reason - who likes you or who doesn't. Live your life on your terms, rather than living it on the terms of someone else... Why do you worry about doing something that you like? Why do you worry about your boyfriend not liking it? Each one of us have our list of likes and dislikes. Just as you understand your better half's list of likes and dislikes, he needs to acknowledge yours as well... am sure my guy would!

I have noticed this with so many people that they are one sort of a person when amongst friends and they are the ones who behave so differently when they are with their guy/girl. Somewhere I see that fear on their faces. They think so many times before doing something... why? Come on, don't you think that all the sacrifices or adjustments you did till date are enough? If you think your better half really loves you, he/she would surely understand you and your preferences.

Life is like this one big jigsaw puzzle. You need to find the missing pieces, identify the shape, color and the pattern...and then place the right piece at the right place! Phew...a hectic task. Why make it more complicated thinking about all the useless things...who would like what you wear or the way you look or the way you talk or the way you walk? Live it for yourself and live it for the ones you feel for... For example, I had this template change, but do you think about who is going to say, "Yuck, that looks so loud, and what makes you think this orange is cool?" Opinions do matter and they should, but not enough that they start ruling your life. I love this template and so it is here to adorn my space! :)

Guys, to cut the story short... we all hear people saying ... "Life is short, make the most of it"... or "Live Life King/Queen size"... It somehow holds true. Let go of everything/anyone who bothers you... Live for yourself... and once you do it, none of us will see posts full of endless rantings or people deleting their blogs or any other disappointment in the real world.

ITS YOUR LIFE, MAKE IT LARGE!!

With this, I end my 94th post! The guest posts begin with the next... :)

My 95th post is from a very good friend of mine...watch this space to know who it is! :D

Love,

Artz!

The Superior Scribbler Award

2009-09-15T12:55:00.001+05:30

I feel extremely honored and delighted to receive the Superior Scribbler Award. Thanks Leo for the award... :) There are certain rules for this award... read them :

1. Each superior scribbler must in turn pass The Award on to 5 most deserving blogger friends.

2. Each superior scribbler must link to the author and the name of the blog from whom he/she has received The Award.

3. Each superior scribbler must display The Award on his/her blog, and link to this post which explains The Award.

4. Each blogger who wins The Superior Scribbler Award must visit this post and add his/her name to My Linky List.

5. Each Superior Scribbler must post these rules on his/her blog.

I pass this award to -

1. Sowmiya - For the immense amount of honesty in her writes and her attitude towards life. :)

2. Shravan - For his out-of-the-box topics!

3. Freelancer - For his style of poetry, the depth in his words and his quest to experiment with new styles.

4. Mr. K. Parthasarathi - I salute this man! He is one of the oldest bloggers (mind you, he is 70+) and his stories are so inspiring and motivating. Sir, you are truly an inspiration.

5. Parzii - For being the sweetest blogger! :) Your words always leave a sweet impression and a smile lingering on my lips. ;)

A New Beginning... Artz takes up a pen name! :)

2009-09-11T16:46:00.000+05:30

You all would be aware that my 100th post is coming real soon... if you are not aware of this, better act like you are... :P

With this milestone, I have come up with an interesting idea. I have decided to take up a pen name!!!!!

So boys and girls, uncles and aunties and didi's and bhaiyas...

Here I announce it officially... The 100th post of mine will be sealed with my new pen name - 'Nyx'... which means the Goddess of Night, but I really like the way it sounds! I hope you guys like it.

That's about it for now guys... As I mentioned in my previous posts that a few guest posts and celebrations are coming your way... stay glued! :)

Love,

Artz (For now)

Mind Boggling Observations!

2009-09-10T10:55:00.001+05:30

Time to thank my friend SOWMIYA again! Last night...we were on phone... talking about heartbreaks and all the philosophies that surround the mortals, i.e. us! This girl just talks, and talks, and talks... certainly leaving me baffled and always giving me one more topic to blog about! Thanks da... without you... I would be a big time victim of Writers' Block! :P

Its strange... sometimes mind boggling... and a characteristic owned by each one of us! Oopz, forgot to tell you what am I talking about. Sorry! :P

Ever heard any friend of yours saying... 'Everything is over and I wish to live no more!'

Or may be... 'I've had enough yaa... I have seen so much! Now... I just seek death.'

Now, forgetting about which friend of mine said this to me... I can tell you guys one thing that I surely said the same statement to many friends of mine! Shucks man! :P

There are times and situations in one's life where everything seems to be going wrong and life seems to be a mere waste of time. It is too much to handle at one particular time... But have we ever noticed that though we use this cliche statement a lot of times that ~~'I wish to die now and I can't take this any more'~~ , we generally move far away from all such situations, facing each one of them, cribbing about it, still emerging victorious... leaving our friends baffled and confused!?! :P :P

That is what confuses me. Taking a few exceptions into consideration (a fraction of the society that does give in to practices like committing suicide and things like that), all of us are knowingly or unknowingly strong! Isn't it? I mean... all of us have somehow witnessed some big pain or the other that made us wonder about our existing law/reason behind our existence in this world... To put it in the words of the Drama Queen in me... 'Bhagwan, ab main kaise jiyungi (Translation - Oh lord, how will I live now!)... But these laws/reasons change with time. All of us, wantingly or unwantingly, knowingly or unknowingly, learn to beat the pain and move ahead in life! :)

Personally speaking, I am a very emotional person! (Shucks yaa, secret revealed! :P)

There was a time when I wanted to pursue my B.Arch and for some reasons I could not. I mean, this was my dream ever since I took up Science as my subject in Class XII. I was totally shattered when I couldn't realize my dreaming of pursuing my B.Arch. I told my friends that I wished to die! :P Lol...

But guys, TODAY I proudly present to you... My Blog - PRAGMATIC UTOPIA... a standing evidence of my existence in this world... technically 4 years after I told my friends that I wished to die! That's some news!! :D :D Am still alive! :P

Our problems seem so big to us at a point that leads us to such sudden outbursts of MAGNIFIED emotions! But, things generally take a new shape... with time! Time is a healer they say, and so it is!

When things go wrong, indulge in yourself, your family and friends... indulge in something that can take your mind off what is bothering you... (It sounds easy... and trust me, it is not difficult!)

Life sure is a snoozefest (Credits to Kasabiangirl) ... it gives you ample reasons to rant about... Each one of us are given ample reasons to cry and crib! But dudes and dudettes (:P), amidst these reasons, there are ample underlying reasons to be happy, to move on, to LIVE LIFE! :)

Find your own reasons and STAY HAPPY! :) ...And if you don't find the reason, am here for you all... come to me, we'll find it together! :)

Love!

TaGgEd... :P

2009-09-09T13:24:00.000+05:30

Tag season is back I guess! :P

Thank you Kaka for tagging me! :)
Alright guys, so this is called the BRAND TAG! :P

My Laptop Brand - Lenovo

My Mobile Brand - Nokia

My head phones Brand - Moser Baer

My watch Brand - Fastrack

My Shoes/Sandals Brand - Reebok

Other Brands I use - Brittania, Amway, Oriflame, McD, Nike, Lakme, Samsung... :)

Such a short and sweet tag! :D :D Thanks guys for bearing with me through this! I tag... Stephen, Leo and Kasabiangirl. :)

Artz is back with some random thoughts!

2009-09-08T18:08:00.001+05:30

After a week in Bangalore...after feeling rejuvenated and completely happy... I returned to my base yesterday morning! :)

All I have got as of now to share with you people is what I did, felt and experienced in the last few days!

I am so so so happy that in the last few days I met a few blogger friends...

Vinay...he is really cute! :)

I am so glad that I got to meet him after months of being friends with him in this Virtual World! :)

Abhrajit Datta... a very nice guy at heart... a jester! But an equally intense character for sure...! Crazily shady! :P :P

Pratibha... OMG! Finally I got to meet my sis! :) A sweetheart... :)

Sowmiya... I never thought I would be able to make it this time... But as they say...'Man proposes one way, God disposes the other.' I met this girl just after a few days sice we began chatting and I felt as if I met a childhood friend of mine with whom I had lost contact! Sowmi... you rawk! :)

Rashmi... a babe for sure! :) A nice girl at heart... :) Glad to have met ya! :)

Am back to square one now... back to my blogging self! And I also spoke to a new girl from The Writers Lounge... Shruti! Welcome to my world babe! :)

And guys, with this I complete my 89th post. Trust me, I am going to give you all a very hard time because you would now see me on a spree! :) Keep reading!

My 100th post is coming soon with a few guest posts and celebrations! :)
See ya all...

Love,

Artz!

Glory In Making...

2009-09-08T16:36:00.002+05:30

Kirti stood there gazing at the moon and her eyes brimming with tears. She worked as a domestic help at the Kapoor’s. A domestic help… that meant no freedom, no education… in short, no life!

She had always thought that her master was a good man. That night was different. He returned home, completely drunk! When all the others in the family had slept, Mr. Kapoor entered Kirti’s room and had sexually assaulted her!

‘What did I do to deserve such a fate? My mother deserted me when I was four and ever since then I have been struggling… for a living, for a respectable life. They say my mom was a prostitute and call her names. I never wanted to be someone like her and hence, I ran away from all of them. And today again I am at one such juncture in my life… I am being forced in to something that I know will ruin my life forever! Help me lord… and tell me, do you think I deserve this?’ she cried giving rise to a million other questions inside her.

She was sure of at least one thing… she was not weak. She was a fighter!

The wind started to blow and the dark clouds made way for the moon to appear. She raised her head to see the moon beaming and smiling at her. She remained perplexed for the next few minutes, unsure of what these signals meant.

Suddenly she felt a comforting touch on her shoulder. The old lady sat next to Kirti and asked her the reason behind her tears. Kirti told her everything that she witnessed and felt. The old lady patiently listened to everything and she hugged the little girl.

‘What is your name my child?’ the old lady enquired.

‘My problem is much bigger right now that these silly things like my name… can you please help me? Anyway, my name is Kirti’ she said feeling irritated and traumatized.

‘Kirti means glory… and there will be a day when the whole world will know you. You are hurt, I understand. But I know you are not weak. Life means struggle… each one of us face it at one point or the other. And trust me, every problem has a solution and your problem has its own.’

The old lady took Kirti with her to the little home that she ran for homeless children. Kirti found a new home where she was made to study, to learn other vocational activities which would help her in future.

At times when she felt low and lonely, she would walk to the same place and would gaze at the moon and see moon would be back smiling at her. Kirti had found a new life for herself; she knew it that she would make it big one day! She promised to herself that she would prove everyone wrong who said that a prostitute’s daughter would have to be a prostitute herself. Glory in making!

Crossposted from The Writers Lounge

Random Tag

2009-09-04T11:02:00.000+05:30

Alright... so I was at Sowmi's Blog when I read this tag and decided to take this up. :)

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4 – There will be no tears today; just fun, laughter and general happiness, my dear friend... Book : P.S. I LOVE YOU…Author : Cecilia Ahern.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can & catch air? – Nope…a table calendar! ;P

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? – I saw Channel V…some stupid song…

4. Without looking, guess what time it is? – 10.50 AM

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? – 10.46 AM (Whoa! Quite close!)

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? – My mom is screaminggggg! Grr!

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? - Just two hours back… I was at the Chennai Railway Station…came from Bangalore.

8. Before you started this Q&As, what did you look at? – I looked at Sowmi’s Blog! I love her randomness…

9. What are you wearing? – Blue Jeans and a Black Tshirt with MJ print! :)

10. When did you last laugh? – Few minutes back…

11. What is on the walls of the room you are in? – Nothing… just the paint! :P

12. Seen anything weird lately? – Umm… I have experienced loads of weird feelings! :P :P

13. What do you think of this quiz? – Shabba! Why so random!?!

14. What is the last film you saw? – KAMINEY! :P

15. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy? – Jimmy Choo’s, a bag from Louis Vuitton and shades from Dolce and Gabbana…and, a small house! :D

16. Tell me something about you that I dunno! – I am a very serious sort of a person… with hey-whom-are-you-messing-with look on my face! :P

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? – I would really want the youth to go for politics…am sick and tired of looking at the 50+ doing nothing for the country!

18. Do you like to Dance? – Lolz… Am a bad dancer. :P

19. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? - Aaruhi

20. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? - Arghya

21. Would you ever consider living abroad? – I want to go there for a few years and come back! There can be nothing better than my country…the noises and the warmth.

22. What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? – What the FCUK were you upto????? You got me crazy! :P :P

I tag Abhrajit Datta, Anurag, Esther and anyone else who would like to take up this tag! :)

P.S.: This is a filler. Have been off from the blog world for quite sometime now. Have been travelling so much. I will be back home by Monday! See ya all soon! :)

See ya! :D

2009-08-24T10:36:00.000+05:30

Hey my dearest people,

Actually... am going to Bangalore day after! :) ... Many things left to do before leaving Delhi... gotta get groceries at home for my aunt, gotta buy medicines, and many other things. So today I plan to finish all the shopping work and tomorrow my dad is coming back... so I will be busy in office and packing my stuff! :D :D

Pragmatic Utopia will not be updated for at least the next 10 days!!!!! Sigh! I am going to miss you all...

Take care all of you... miss me a bit... I will miss you all loads...

Mwah to you! :)

Love,

ARTZ!

The Numbers Tag

2009-08-22T12:42:00.001+05:30

Thank you Vinu for tagging me. :)

1. Number of pets I have. Her name is Ginger... a daschund... Awww.... I so adore her! But when it comes to possessiveness... she is a BITCH (literally and otherwise). See below -

2. Number of blogs I have - Pragmatic Utopia and Darling Of Poetry!

3. My favorite number... My birth date adds up to 3... Muahahahaha! :P

4. The standard when I came first in school ... for the first time!! :P And... precisely, the last time when I came first! :P :P

5. Number of places in my body where I have stitches. I told you ... am a 'Fallen' Angel. :P

6. People I so love - Daddy, Mommy, Doggie, Sid, Roger and Vishakha.

7. Times I flunked in Mathematics! :P

8. Footballers I love - Ronaldo (Though I hate him for going to Madrid), Rooney, Berbatov, Lampard, Tevez (I miss you), Zidane, Kaka, Ballack!

9. Number of times I joined my classical training. Each time I had to discontinue because the teacher was going abroad! :P

10. Places I want to visit - Bahamas, Texas, Niagara Falls, New York, Spain, Italy, Paris, Goa, Andamans and Bermuda Triangle (Never to come back!).

11. Times I read Antony and Cleopatra.

12. My birth date... Moi loves my birthday! :P :P

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N. No. of times I catch fever! :P :P (If you can count this.)

And I stop right here. I further tag Anurag, Nuchu and Sowmiya!

Err... Umm... Awwww!

2009-08-20T11:03:00.000+05:30

Hellozzz... all you wonderful people...

Actually I am completely blank while writing this post... I don't know why does it all feel so empty these days. Sigh! My dad aint in town... my mom is off to Bangalore... my friends are keeping busy these days... and I know you all will say that if my parents aren't at home, I should be partying around...but nah!! I am feeling so lost...so empty.

I don't have anyone to wake me up for my office at 8.30 A.M.

I don't have anyone to give me my morning tea.

I don't have anything to look forward to when my office ends at around 5.

I don't have anyone to fight with to watch my favorite channel.

I don't have anyone who would shout at me while am busy dirtying around my house.

I don't have anyone who would cook a plain rice and dal and still I would eat it and feel so happy.

Why is that am missing mom so badly... I mean, I am 21 now and I need to be a big girl now... But ahaan...err... I miss my mom yaa!

I hate her when she screams at me when am home... but why does this silence around me haunt me today??

She keeps on giving me some work or the other when she is around... but why do I now feel pathetic to go back home knowing that there would be nothing I will be doing once I reach??

Oh c'mon mom and dad... you can't just leave me home like this... for me to make a HOME ALONE part -4... shucks!
Though everything is going fine... am feeling ultra depressed! :(

Okay... now lets talk about what positive amongst these dark clouds...
1. Daddy is coming back on Monday! Yippee!!!!!
2. I am going to Bangalore to my mom on 26th, i.e. Wednesday! Double Yay! :)

Thats about it guys... so its Bangalore callin' this time! :)

But for now... its sigh time! Sigh!

Which One Is India's Biggest Problem?

2009-08-14T17:36:00.002+05:30

After talking about drugs and old-age homes...its time for a little change! Today is 14th of August and technically tomorrow is our Independence Day!

Lets talk about India...where India needs to change!!!!!

What was new in India in the last few days? Umm... legalisation of Gay Rights? Section - 377...

True!! So much of happiness all around... so many controversies... so many arguments and what not!

Lets talk about India's biggest problem today... is it Gay Marriage or is it Arranged Marriage! Sounds stupid? Trust me... its not!

With the number of divorces going high... it is so very crystal clear that even arranged marriages are becoming a big time troublesome issue. India, under the blanket of GLOBALISATION, has seen a lot of changes underneath it. Each one of us have started to adopt the western culture (or may be 'ape' the western culture)... night clubs, clothing, our accent in which we talk (most of the times ~~fake~~) and certainly our ideologies... at least of those of the youth!

Talk of arranged marriages...I really do not mean to generalise the lot here (please do keep that in mind)... I do believe that still a lot of people go with arranged marriages but... most of the youth prefer the other way round. 'Love' is in rage! :P

Young couples have been facing a lot of problems...am talking about those who got married in an arranged fashion! I have myself seen a lot of couples heading towards divorce... both husband and wife working... expectations do not match... ego clashes and boom! Its not only in the case of both the parties working... its also there where only the husband works. The flaws of marriages...everyone knows!

Lets come to Gay Marriages now. My point is... that if we are comfortable with Pubs, Boozing and for that matter, even sex... then why is the 'gay marriage' such a big thing! Let it be! Let them be happy with whatever they want... have they ever objected on you being STRAIGHT? Lolz... why to steal their rights??? I know, for people like us (STRAIGHT)...it sounds absurd... GAY marriage?? OMG! But come on... grow up. If you think its a taboo or may be some kind of a stain on Indian culture... then perhaps Indian Culture is completely under a big pool of mud these days... completely stained!

What I 'personally' feel is that... none of them, i.e. Gay marriages or Arranged Marriages, is India's problem! The problem is your thinking! As I said in my post 'Friends, Relationships and Marriages'... it is in your hands to make your marriage work. It might be tough, but it ain't impossible, ok? There are ups and downs in life... and you need to be strong to handle it and it'll be done.

And as far as gay marriages are concerned... stop taking it as cheap or vulgar or something derogatory, for that matter! It is something as natural to them as it is for us in being straight! So just chill, accept them as one of us... and treat them well!

India's problem lies within each one us... our mindset... Once we are through with setting it right, we all have a bright future to look forward to! :)

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY

It Might Be You One Day!

2009-08-13T12:05:00.001+05:30

Hmm... I suppose this is the season of strong writes from my side! :P

I happened to read Mr.K.Parthasarathy's blog ... He is 78 years old and is perhaps the oldest blogger! I read a story (real-life story) in his blog about old-age homes, and trust me...what he wrote about is so emotional and so true!

Surely these days the number of old-age homes are at an all-time high! I don't need to tell you that, do I? I visited an old-age home in Bangalore once... I do need to mention that it was a very well maintained one. I entered the home with lots of sweets and biscuits...

There was a couple, perhaps waiting to see their parents. They had a three month-old baby in their hands... and just then the baby started to cry! I saw an elderly couple coming out of their room holding hands... and the old lady said to her husband, "Some child is crying nearby... feels like Aman has come." That old lady could barely walk or see...and Aman was her grandson!

It felt pathetic... It showed how much she loved her grandson and how much she wanted to be with him...with her family!!!

I was in Chennai recently and I met this friend of mine... Arv... he promised to spend the day with me and other friends... but he pulled out because he had to take his mom to her relatives'. He could have comfortably sent her all by herself, but instead he chose to go with her... I was so moved when I heard it... He said, "You know... I don't want her to travel by the local train or something." Hats off to you Arv... I was really touched!

Why do these elderly people deserve this? What have they done to deserve such a fate!! Did they not raise their kids to the best of their ability, did they not love you, do you not see the tears in their eyes and that heart shouting out to you to take them home with you? Sigh! Modern people, modern values, craving to match up to the society's standards (whether they are really worth it or not)... sigh! Does it really feel good when you tell people that you have thrust your parents/grandparents into such old-age homes??? You bet...such people would surely avoid answering such questions!

No matter how well equipped or how super classy that old-age home is...what those elderly souls need today is not comfort, not an Air-conditioner or not a super soft mattress to sleep on... what they need is a liitle time of yours... a smile from you... one or two words of comfort... that is all!!

Today we take a decision to put them into one such old-age home... but tomorrow you never know... even you may land up there one day... why repent later? Sort it out today! Don't treat them as a burden...treat them as a blessing by God!

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Drugs, again!

2009-08-13T10:24:00.000+05:30

Hey Guys,

In my last post I spoke to you about the 'drugs' thing...

I have been following the series 90210 on Star World for quite some time and I am completely in love with it...

Its about the life at Beverly Hills... the different follies of the youngsters and how they give in to different practices...

When I wrote about Adriana in my fiction, I had Adriana from 90210 in mind... she gave in to drugs because of her mom's crazy nature. Trust me... yesterday when I saw 90210...it was a shock! The drug busting racket hits the Beverly Hills...and Adriana who always carried drugs in her lipstick box... starts crying in front of Naomi, her friend.

Naomi saves Adriana but lands up in trouble herself when the police finds her flushing out all the white powder! Naomi is called for a trial...and she somehow talks to Adriana and convinces her to come to the investigation in the evening and confess that the drugs were hers!

Adriana goes back home...sees her mom talking about how Adriana's recent achievement (bagging a movie role) will solve all their problems... Adriana was there to speak to her mom about her drugs issue.

The last scene shows Adriana dead! Dead...because she had gone so weak mentally...she didn't know what to do... she failed to understand what was right for her... she feared hurting her mom's expectations and ruining her mom's happiness and her life!

I hated it!

I don't know the reason behind me writing and researching so much about weeds, drugs and stuff... guess what...am reading a book by Karan Bajaj...titled 'Keep Off The Grass.'

But this issue...I really want to propagate more about this! I will be talking more about all this very soon...

You deserve something better...

2009-08-12T13:36:00.001+05:30

One day when Adriana was returning from college, she saw her best friend Angela talking to a few guys, who later handed over a few packets to her in return of huge amount of money!

"Angela... wait..." she screamed. She saw her running frantically, trying to avoid talking to her.

"Stop running Angela and listen to me."
Angela stopped. Adriana caught hold of her hands and snatched away those packets from her...

"What are you up to? And what are these packets? What is it Angela? Will you explain?"
After remaining silent for nearly a minute...Angela gathered the guts to speak...

"Look Adriana...I just don't need to explain all this to you... But anyways, as you see...these packets contain drugs!", Angela said, trying to free herself away from Adriana.

Adriana walked back home... she had her mind crowded with thoughts about Angela...

TWO MONTHS LATER

Adriana hears a beep. Text message.

"Come soon... there isn't much left!"...it said.

Twenty minutes later... Adriana was sniffing...smoking... She was not a part of this world anymore!
Drugs ruled her life... Adriana had slowly given into it. She hailed from a middle-class family...she had two younger brothers... no elder siblings.

A few days later, Adriana's younger brother caught her taking drugs! She was taken for counsellings...but no help. Her mom took the last resort... she was sent to the Rehab Centre!

Six Months Later

Adriana was strolling around when she saw her neighbour's daughter running towards four guys who had that same dreadful thing in their hands... She stood there silently for a minute... her past started to play hide and seek with her! She could not see someone else live her past in front of her own eyes!

She ran to the girl, brought her home... showed her the pictures of her past... her life... as a drug addict... She told her about her life at the rehab... how difficult it was to get out of all that mess...

With this she had saved a life...

There are many others who give in to all this... drugs! Their reasons might be different... some for peer pressure, some for the sake of fun... some may be to run away from their problems...

It might cost them a few grands to buy it and enjoy it...but it truly costs a lifetime...it costs a lifetime for their family and friends! The pleasure they get from those drugs might last for a few hours... But the damage it does to them, their family and friends lasts for a long time...

P.S.: Quit drugs guys... this is my humble request to all those who have gone for it... its the weakest way out... If you're facing a difficulty (whatever it might be)... drugs is the weakest way! Please... stop killing yourself... you deserve a better life!!

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Friends, Relationships and Marriage!

2009-08-11T16:25:00.005+05:30

Life is a journey... an endless one! And, in this journey we meet 'n' number of people...and we can categorize each one of them...

A few people just come, stay for a while and then vanish...
Some come, teach you a few things, leave a mark and go...
Some come, stay with you, but they have hardly anything to do with your life...
There is another category... these people come, stay, make an impression and continue to inspire and motivate you throughout!

We generally get along with people with similar interests or with people with a completely different set of opinions, isn't it? Some become our friends, some best friends and some more than friends... of course, not to forget, there are a few relations to which there are no names! :)

Once we get into a relationship, the dynamics are altogether very different. They say that people tend to change when they are in love... we forget about everyone...
My purpose of this post is...to argue whether it is good to be in a relationship always or whether it is better getting married! There may be varied opinions about the same! One of my friend really believes in that 'live-in' concept... according to him, everything changes after the marriage! Kids, responsibilities, questions... to cut it short, it becomes a 'living-in-hell' sort of an experience!

Many say...relationships are the best. No matter whether you are committed or not...you always have that freedom with you... you can choose whatever you want to do... whenever you want to do! If at any point of time, you feel that he/she is not the right one for you, you have all the rights to 'move-on'.

Coming to the other side of the coin... I prefer getting married! Be it arranged or love, there is always a special feeling attached to it! The feeling in itself...that you are now going to spend your life with this guy/girl...how exciting! As my friend Arv says... 'Wife is for life, whereas a partner would become just a memory some day'... that is so true!

In a married sort of a life, you have someone by your side always...when you need them and also when you don't need them. In a relationship, there is always a risk! In a married life, one evolves as a human being with a lot more maturity which comes as a result of the different responsibilities he/she has...but in a relationship devoid of responsibilities, there is a certain lack of maturity!

There are lot many things that people learn after getting married... patience, perseverance... they learn how to hold on to things, how to make each day better, how to live for that special one, how to sacrifice and still not repent or crib... that is commitment! I know it is difficult for those who advocate live-in relationships to understand what I mean! I know they think its bullshit! There are many others who would agree to what I feel...

Love never dies... be it a relationship or marriage... Love teaches you a lot of things... Its sometimes sweet, sometimes painful... the best teacher! I myself wrote a post on whether love fades away with time... I guess not. It is up to you to keep it alive!! Just like you make sure that nothing goes wrong when you are in a relationship... the same way things can be taken care of when you are married!
A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' come together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differences. So true! :)

Another Tag! :D

2009-08-08T11:21:00.003+05:30

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What do your friends mean to you?
They probably mean a lot to me…no matter virtual or real. I equally cherish them. There was a time when I craved for friendship and thankfully I now have more than enough to survive with a smile on my face. They have been my pillow when I wanted to hide my face and cry… the stick I can walk with when I felt low and alone… they have always been special to me. They are the reasons why I have changed in such a positive way!

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
I have always realized my dreams with my efforts. I don’t think there is just 1 dream that I can limit myself to… so… will tell you once things start materializing.

3. Why do you blog?
I blog to stay happy… I blog to stay sane in this mad world outside that is waiting to take me in its clutches and torture me to death! It is my place where I can talk about whatever and whoever I want to… cry my heart out…knowing that someone would always be here to listen to me without even expecting a bit from me in return!

4. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
I may or I may not… that can only be decided with time… But the thing is I would not want to… friendship is any day better!

5. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both… being loved by someone you love is the biggest blessing. :)

6. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
A lifetime… sounds vague, but true!

7. Would you ask out the person whom you like?
Yes… I don’t believe in the age-old thought… only guys should take the initiative. There should be no issues in telling your special one how much he means to you! :)

8. What do you want to be known for when you die?
I admit I have made a lot of mistakes in past… but I would like to be known for someone who learnt from her mistakes and lead a good and decent life! And also, for my smile! ;)

9. What takes you down the fastest?
A fight with anyone!

10. What resurrects you the fastest?
A smile and a hug!

11. What’s your fear? What do I fear for?
I don’t want to die with no one by my side.

12. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
That guy… Shravan… Is quite cute. He is teaching me Malayalam…so my teacher!

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
I would rather be married and poor… rest I know how to fight and make my way out! And with him by my side, I’ll be the strongest.

14. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?
The one whom I love more…

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
I had given it all, will surely give it all… there is nothing more that counts more than the smile on your loved one’s face.

16. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done?
I think yes, everyone deserves a second chance!

17. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
Being in a relationship is always special…

18. Who/what inspired you to start blogging?
The feeling that I can be ME here without any ‘what ifs’…

19. Why does one tag?
To kill time and boredom! And also if someone wants to know more about you, they tag you! Simple.

20. Tag 6 people:
I really don’t want to do this. Anyone who wants to do this tag, can take it up! :)

P.A.I.N

2009-08-07T18:13:00.005+05:30

Purged emotions leading to redemption

And all other feelings now start to sink

In you I now find my true happiness

Nothing more I yearn for, just you my love

Hey guys,

This is an Acrostic Decasyllable Quatrain...an acrostic that has 4 lines containing 10 syllables each. Vinu taught me this. He says that am a good student who has learnt two forms of poetry in one single day! :D :D

Thanks Vinu... its because of a great teacher like you! :) Thanks for curing my writer's block! :)

Me & You...My First Haiku! :D

2009-08-07T17:15:00.006+05:30

My heart hums a tune

I gaze at your face and sky

And it starts to rain

P.S.: This is my first haiku!! :D Am so excited!! All the credit goes to my dear friend Vinu aka Leo... :) Thanks for teaching me! :D

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Will you?

2009-08-07T10:37:00.004+05:30

It seems like a fairy tale… It has been five years since we exchanged vows… you’ve been the best…All those promises fulfilled, that love has been blossoming ever since.

Will it be the same always?...this question terribly frightens me.

Will you love me till eternity? Will you be mine forever?

P.S.: I leave this open ended. What are your views about this? I have often heard people saying that everything changes after a few years' time. But, I have also seen a few couples...that 'magic never dies'...this is what I feel when I see them. What are the reasons? Do things really change?

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NEWS!!!!!

2009-08-06T09:01:00.003+05:30

Ok...

So yesterday was Rakshabandhan and after all the morning chores me and my mom planned to go out for some shopping! :D :D :D

And guess what all I bought...

1. Nokia 7210 Supernova - GOD!! I so love this phone! :) It is that super sleek, classy handset perfectly crafted for the girls... :)

My handset is completely BLACK (I love black, remember?). With a memore card of 1 GB and data cable, I bought this one for a good 4.7 grands! :) Thats quite affordable... hehe and I am so glad, yesterday we got the rakshabandhan special price! Lol...

2. A sexy chic skirt and a super-hot top - Lol... ;) Yep yep... Kinda trying a new look you see... :D :D I spent a whole two grands on it...absobloodylutelyyyy crazy! :P

My mom was shocked when she saw me in that skirt and top...she said, "I really don't know what you are up to...but trust me, its cool." And I went lol-ing away to glory! :P :P

So, thats the story... Artz went out for some good shopping yesterday and it was so much fun! :D :D

Kitne saare tags! :P

2009-08-04T12:01:00.002+05:30

So finally I am here with another Tag and trust me this one is interesting. My virtual daddy, Ste aka The Solitary Writer has tagged me this time! :P

More about the TAG:
The idea is, to list five items in each category and not necessarily in order of liking. You can always add or subtract categories according to your will. Then tag five people.

My five favorite words:

1. Friggin’ – Yea, I use this word a lot…whenever I am hyper angry or shocked out of my wits! :P

2. WTF! – Yes, I know that’s a phrase and not a word! :P

3. Zooper – Hehe… love saying that!

4. Awweee – Am an emotional creep, so that sums it up!

5. Geee… :D – That is supposed to be an innocent grin! Lol…

My five favorite celebrity crushes:
1. Richard Gere – He looks so handsome despite his age!!
2. Arjun Rampal – Drroooool! :D :D
3. Big B – Yes, he has that aura around himself! :D
4. Kabir Bedi – Old men are more handsome. Sigh! :)
5. Daniel Vettori – Cho chuweeeeet! :D

My five favorite random things:
1. Mobile – Have to keep it with myself all the time… :)
2. Computer
3. Any gadget on which I can play songs…music brings back all the happiness. :)
4. My doggie… if that counts! She is the one whom I can irritate! :)
5. Books! What a relief they are from boredom! :)

My five favorite Comic characters:
1. Archie
2.Calvin & Hobbes

3.Tom & Jerry

4.Olive Oyl

5.Mr.Bean…if that counts! Lol

My five favorite Literary Characters:
1. Antony from Antony and Cleopatra
2. Achilles
3. Deb from Of course I love you…till I find someone better!
4. Jane Eyre
5. Darcy of Pride and Prejudice

Finally, I am done with this tag! :P
I further tag Freelancer, Leo, Anurag (yea, again) and Sowmi.

Happy Friendship Day

2009-08-02T10:07:00.005+05:30

Hey all you beautiful people,

Wish you all a very very happy friendship day! :)

With this post I wanna thank all those who now make me who I am, who complete me...thanks Roger, Arnie, FL, Ste, Vinu, Sandeep, Kajal, Nidhi, Abhishek, Parzi, Pratsie, Rashi, Arun, Sona, Roshni, Nuchu and each one of you... :)

I know friendship

a gem rare and pure

But I just don't want any more

Since I have found all of you!

Also, I want to welcome everyone who has just met me...Sowmi, Shravan, Kasabiangirl, Esther, Anurag...stay around guys! :) Happy friendship day to all of you once again! Love ya loads! :)

Happy Birthday Roger! :)

2009-07-31T13:06:00.004+05:30

Hey guys,

Its my friend's birthday today... Roger!

I just want to wish him a very happy birthday... May all his dreams and wishes come true!

Have a great day and may all the bad times end today and may you see a happy tomorrow! :)

Do you guys know something?? He calls me Puchu! :P And I love it when he calls me that!

Roger, Puchu loves you...and yes, thank you for those 'n' number of times when you have stood by my side knowing I was the one who did a mistake! Mwaaah! :)

Yours Puchu! :D

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Something Strange... ;)

2009-07-31T11:49:00.004+05:30

Hehe... I am feeling so weird writing this already!! :P
I know this is so...umm...ajeeb!! Strange!! All of us, in our late teens or early twenties are bound to know the internet, this gtalk, yahoo messenger thingies...we do make new friends, endlessly chat with them, hide the mobile and message them...blah blah blah! Innit?

But just imagine, how strange it is if our mom makes new friends and chats with them through sms...obviously without hiding her phone...duh!! Earlier, it was my mom who shouted on me whenever she saw me messaging my friends without even looking at the keypad...and now, when I see my mom messaging her friends...umm... i notice her message typing speed has increased!! Oh lord, hell, why am I being so possessive about her!!

Out of the blues, when she shouted on me - "Aarthiiiii, whom are you messaging?? What are you kids up to??"...I always felt like asking her what her problem was and why she could not give me the space I want!! But hell, now when I see her messaging her friends... I feel like snatching away that phone from her and asking her friend - "What is your problem??? Can't you just stay away you fool???"
Sigh! Sigh!
I now understand the reason behind her behaviour when she objected to my messaging my friends or talking on the phone for long. Damn, this is a terrible feeling I tell ya! :P
Is it out of that possessive feeling that we tend to feel awkward? Or, is it because of the fear we have that something wrong should not happen to them? I just don't know what it is... It is just that i'll take a little time to accept that she can also make new friends, she can also feel the same way I do! Am going crazyyyyy!!!!! :P :P

But yes, amidst all these, one thing that I have realized is that...she understands me more now! :) She understands why we need those friends in our lives, what makes them so special for us! She understands why we need to keep in touch with them...messages, calls...everything! :)

Haaaa....phew! Relieved! ;)
I love you mom. Trust me, I am a very protective and possessive smart li'l kid you have!! I don't want to see something wrong happening to you. Please forgive me if I behave irrationally at times!! Want to see you happy always...

Artz! :)

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One Word Blog Meme! :D

2009-07-30T18:14:00.004+05:30

Where is your cell phone? On my table and the other one, on charging! Yea, I shamelessly own two!! :P
Relationship? So Complicated! :P
Your hair? Medium
Work? Yes, as a facade consultant. Dunno what is facade? Google try karo! :P
Your sister? Pratsie...she fills up that void in my life! :)
Your favorite thing? My camera! Love clicking pictures! :P
Your dream last night? I saw Rashi, FL and Prats...don't remember what and why!
Your favorite drink? Pespi! Or Iced Tea!
Your dream car? Audi :) *Drool*
The room youre in? My bedroom :D
Your fears? Lizards!! Eekksssss!!
What do you want to be in 10 years? Settled, madly in love!
Who did you hang out with this weekend? I was travelling...so all my co-passengers! :P
What are you not good at? Staying angry for long!
One of your wish list items? In the last tag i spoke of Jimmy Choo's and now...its Louis Vuitton bag!
Where you grew up? Delhi (Mind you, not Ghaziabad).
Last thing you did? Had tea
What are you wearing? A girlie dress...churidar! :)
What aren't you wearing? Shoes
Your pet? One oversmart bitch... GINGER!
Your computer? Samsung
Your life? Is not going the way I want it to...but this also ain't bad.
Your mood? Umm...inquisitive!
Missing? No one! :P
What are you thinking about right now? how to complete this tag
Your kitchen? Sweet enough!
Your summer? Spent a few days in Chennai...yuck!
Your favorite color? Black
Last time you laughed? When I spoke to FL today about Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince... :P
Last time you cried? July has been a wonderfully bad to me... so you know what I mean! I've lost count!
School? Graduated! :)
Love? Yes!

Thanks Ste for tagging me... I further tag Anurag, Sowmiya, Rashi and whoever wants to take it up! :D

I miss you, do you?

2009-07-29T15:21:00.002+05:30

I knew it would never be easy
Easy not to think about you
You gave me the reason to believe
Believe in the truth and in you

You always said the truth
Truth that I would be missed
Missed when I am gone
Gone to where I was from

From that day I am waiting
Waiting to hear from you
You are the one I am longing for
For you is to where I belong…

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A to Z... and something about ME!

2009-07-29T14:29:00.005+05:30

Before going to the tag, Sowmi says I've to post the rules. So here we go-
1. Link the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Share the ABCs of you.
4. Tag 3 people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.
5. Let the 3 tagged people know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.
6. Do not tag the same person repeatedly but try to tag different people, so that there is a big network of bloggers doing this tag!

A to Z about me. Main gita par kasam khaa kar kehti hu ki jo bhi kahungi sach kahungi aur sach ke sivai pata nahi kya kahungi. :P
A – Available/Single? - Ummm...none!
B – Best friend? - Someone who knows me in and out - Vishakha
C – Cake or Pie? - Pie
D – Do I want something right now? - A pair of Jimmy Choo's...
E – Essential item you use every day? - Body Shampoo [:P] and Mobile.
F – Freedom to me is? - Believing in what you are and doing what you feel is right!
G – Giggle / Laughter - Giggle...anyday! I am famous for it! :P
H – Heart / Brain - I would go with my heart...incidentally, my heart makes more sense! :D
I – Indulgence? or Addiction? - Music and Blogging
J – January or February? - January...because my birthday is in January!! :D :D
K – Kids & their names? - Wanna have two, thought of their names already - Arghya and Aaruhi. ;) :P
L – Life is...? - A search... a push to walk that extra mile!
M – Mom - Subhashini... sweetheart! Mwaah momiee! :D :D
N – Number of siblings? - :( None... Wish I had at least one.
O – One thing I hate to accept? - I'm highly egoistic! :
P – Pictures / Reality - I believe in the saying - Seeing is believing! So...no pictures for me! :P
Q – Quote for today? - "Men are like a deck of cards. You'll find the occasional king, but most are jacks." :P Tsk Tsk Tsk... :P
R – Reason behind my brain working these days? - I might move to abroad very soon. My parents are thinking on this quite seriously...UAE is the likely destination!
S – Season? - Winters. Living in Delhi can be one heck of a thing...extreme climates... Summers are unbearable and winters here are amazing!!!
T – Tag 3 People? - Parzi, Anurag and Freelancer.
U – Unknown fact about me? - Though am online almost throughout the day... I also work...and that too hell lot of!
V – Vegetable you don't like? - Bittergourd, Beans...
W – Worst habit? - I think way too much! :)
X – X-rays you've had? - Don't remember how many! :P
Y – Yea yea...thats what I say very frequently
Z – Zodiac sign? - Capricorn...typically one! Very goal-oriented! :D :P :P

Alright... so I have finally completed this task! :D Yay Yay Yay Yay!!!!! :D
Sowmi, you can keep tagging me...I just love doing tags! :) Thanks girl for this! :)

Acro... Penguin & Grasshopper

2009-07-28T13:12:00.002+05:30

Protective about each other
Ever playing pranks
Never will they part their ways
God knows why they met so late
Unleashing their secrets
In no time
Now inseparable they are

Glowing is their friendship
Radiance personified
A thought for a second
Smiles are back on the lips
Sadness fades away
Heaven smiles at them
Oh, it feels so great
Praying that the saga continues
Praying that it gets better
Ever if you need me grasshopper
Rest assured you be, I AM HERE!

Thank you!

2009-07-28T10:32:00.003+05:30

Hey all,

My blog has been hitting that hibernation mould since long. And this time, it stretched to a little longer...

I know you would all have been so very happy without my crap but am so sorry... but I can't help it, am back to bug you! :P :P

Ohk...so where do we begin with? I had been to Chennai for 20 days!! :-o Yes, and that is surely a big thing in itself! Damn, its like I have never stayed in Chennai for more than a week!!

I met many of my TWL friends...enjoyed to the core! Thank you Freelancer, Heena, John and Thoorz... you made my weekend! :D :D

Thank you Arv for making it... ;)

I am feeling kinda rejuvenated, happy, back to my smiling self...trust me, this was much needed. Thankfully, I am back now... back to my blogging! :D :D

Will be posting a small post shortly. :)

I will also be there at your blogs very soon! :D :D

By the way, did you guys miss me? Even if you didn't, this post is to tell you that I missed all of you... I missed you a lot... :D (Yea yea, I know am sweet!) :P :P

C ya soon guys! :D :D

Love,

Artz!

Dad, this is for you.

2009-07-04T18:21:00.008+05:30

I bow down to you

Your patience

The unconditional love

All those teachings

For those sleepless nights

When I cried in the cradle

For that shoulder

On which you put me to sleep

For that first alphabet

You taught me

For that first day I won an award

The encouragement you gave me

The tremendous support

I've always had from you

Those smiles you gave

When in times so blue

No one can do

What you have done for me

Nor can words do justice

To what I today feel

You would always be my star

That even shines on a rainy night

I love you dad
You always be the reason behind my pride!

The New Look!!!

2009-07-02T14:10:00.002+05:30

Hey everyone,

Pragmatic Utopia has got a new makeover done. Like this? I personally loved it.

Thanks a lot Leo for helping me get this done. Guys, shhhhh!!! I am a zero when it comes to html and stuff! :P

It has got a lot of red and charcoal grey in it. It looks fabulous now. Don't miss that previous template that had that cup of coffee... ;)

Love,

Artz

They Said YES!!!

2009-07-01T21:04:00.004+05:30

He woke me up that morning! Just the night before I had cried...cried like never before... cried so much that the whole of the town could drown in my tears!

I could hardly open my eyes since the curtains were drawn out and the sun peeped straight on to my face! Phew!
Why is it that I cried last night because of the two souls I cherish the most? Why is it that they could see me crying and still do nothing? Why?

Anyways, I saw him standing right in front of me, winking! I gave him a short and sweet smile and tried to drag myself out of this cozy bed. He leaned on the bed, came close to me and whispered something in my ears...
I jumped out of the bed... stood there for a minute...shocked!!! I don't know how he did it! How??? How was this possible...that too in such a short span of time!!!

He pinched me to bring me to my senses!!!
He had a big grin on his face and I had a bigger one! :D

I hugged him... hugged him tighter, hugged him in a way that he would never be able to forget this hug!
He said..."They said YES!"

I could not believe that they have approved of this after last night that was full of arguments and resentments...
I hugged him once again and whispered - "Thank you bro! It is because of you that I am going abroad to continue my studies! Thank you so much! I love you..."

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BLINDNESS - An Acrostic

2009-07-01T17:57:00.004+05:30

Been deceived by God in birth

Lonely I was till my soul saw you

It is through your eyes

Night that lasted long came to an end

Destined I was to see

Nature, smiles and happiness

Every moment I am reminded

Seeing is believing

Seeing through my own, or yours!

What is happening with Artz???

2009-06-30T17:22:00.005+05:30

Helloz dear people... Wassaaap? Uh?

I am just back after a small vacation... a three day trip to the holy Ganges!

I had a good time... not so good though... because of very obvious reason... the scorching summer, the sweating etc. But yes, I had fun splashing water on all my colleagues! Oh yes yes, I went with my colleagues! ;)

Phew! It started raining there making the roads all the more miserable...! :(

Oh yes yes, I enjoyed a tonga ride as well... tuk tuk tuk tuk! Lol! :P

Ok, coming to the main point, I am back... will be getting back to blogging soon... having a block these days! Feeling terribly tired right now... need to catch some sleep!

Signing off for now!

Artz!

Fairy Tale?? May Be!!

2009-06-26T19:24:00.005+05:30

Sorry people, I have been out of this blogging business for quite sometime now...

I was just a little overloaded with work and stuff, so did not have time to connect with you all...

But, nevertheless, I am back now... back with a piece of fiction this time! ;)

He was constantly gazing at the clock... What was he waiting for?

In just a few minutes' time, the clock struck 12... He stealthily got out of his bed, went towards Shalini, switched on the table lamp which rested on the side-table!

The light from the table lamp forced Shalini to forcefully open her eyes...

"What is wrong with you Akash? Where are you running to?"

He pulled out a beautiful piece of necklace and kissed her on her forehead and said, "I knew you were stupid, but never knew you would be so stupid to even forget our anniversary!! I love you my Shona."

She was so surprised and utterly clueless of what was going on!!

All the permutations and combinations began inside her head... its 12 in the night, Akash is awake, he has bought a necklace for me... yesterday was 24th and today is 25th of December... What is it?

And just then, something rang inside her head like a quirky alarm clock!

"Oh shoot!" she exclaimed.

He had never seen such a stupid yet innocent expression on her face ever! They both hugged each other and whispered...'"Happy Anniversary"...

Akash rose to bring her favorite chocolate truffle cake he had bought for her.

Shalini followed him to the kitchen and just when Akash took out the cake from the refrigerator, she brought out her hand... On her hand rested a PlayStation Portable 3... he was a gamer from the very beginning...

"And you thought I would forget this special day eh...?" she said smilingly.

Sounds more like a fairy tale eh...? I love such fairy tales... I am one such girl who has dreams of having a guy like Akash in her life... ;)

Dear God,

Just in case you are listening to me and reading this post of mine, you know what I want... don't you?? ;)

Love,

Artz! :)

Happiness - Acrostic

2009-06-20T16:31:00.004+05:30

Hovering between anger and remorse

A soul

Purgatory by nature

Prayed for happiness

I was heard by him

Nature has set me free

Every moment spent in its company

Sprinkles blessings on me

Smiles galore and I am back to ME!

Submitted to Acrostic Only

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PRAGMATIC UTOPIA - An Acrostic

2009-06-19T18:01:00.006+05:30

Preaching peace

Reaching the hearts

A collection of my thoughts

Galore

Many faces it exhibits

At times pessimistic

To me my utopia

Inhibitions set free

Ceaseless my thoughts flow

Upset when I am

To talk to someone I wish

Open is this space for me

Protective by nature

I pour in my thoughts here

A heavy soul now set free

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LOVE IS ALL THEY NEED...

2009-06-18T15:14:00.006+05:30

A day when I fail to remember
Love that you all gave me
Zealously I pray, let it never happen
Hear my cries oh lord, hear me
Ever if it happens
I may please be forgiven
My memories have deserted me
Every moment it might be painful
Read my love for you in my eyes
Sadness is what they might speak

"I rushed to show this piece of paper to my mom! I somehow knew who's handwriting it was... my grandmother's!

"Mom, I saw this diary in my closet... went through a few pages and see what I saw."

My mom glanced through the pages. I was right! It was my grandmother's diary.

"Oh dear! I feel so sorry for her. May be she knew what was going to happen to her and hence, she wrote this."

I could see the tears in my mom's eyes.

My grandmother was a very cheerful lady...ever smiling! She always enjoyed meeting new people, talking to them, spreading smiles everywhere she went.

Suddenly she had started keeping to herself... she did not come out with us anywhere we went. She even stopped talking to me!

That afternoon when I came back from my school, she saw me through the door and refused to recognise me! At first I thought that she was joking, but later on I was told that she was not. In a few days' time, she stopped recognising everyone around and had started withdrawing herself from everything and everyone around.

After a few months, she became bed-ridden! She could not walk... out of fear she threw away the food I got for her. She spoke of the things unknown to us, may be something unknown to her as well. I always got angry on her whenever she did such strange things. I seldom could stop myself from shouting on her!

Today, she is no more...

Today when I read what she wrote a few years' back, it makes me feel guilty for what I did to her! She could do nothing but had to give in to that remorseful fate of hers.

Sorry Grandma, I know you are listening to my cries tonight.

Will you ever forgive me for what I did, ever?"

And with this, she closed her diary... A tear fell on the last word she wrote. She was not sure whether that word had been wiped off by the tear that fell on it, but she knew that these words would have been heard by her grandmom and would have been forever etched in heart!

P.S.: I saw a post on the aged people affected by the Alzheimer's disease in a post at Leo's blog Conjuring Kreativity! My heart goes out to all those affected by Alzheimer's. I urge all their friends and relatives to treat them with love and compassion because these patients hardly know what they are doing, unlike us who are very much aware of our actions.

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An acrostic for you - MEENA (A close friend)

2009-06-12T10:58:00.006+05:30

Motivating me to fight every problem
Every second is pure happiness with you
Everyone smiles seeing you smile
Not a tinge of pain I see around you
And happiness is what I desire for you!

P.S.: She works in my office, a great friend of mine. Unfortunately life snatched her husband from her at a stage when she needed him the most. She is just 27, has 2 kids to look after... I sometimes feel very sorry for her. But her smile keeps teaching me how to keep that hope alive in you! :)
I bow down to you! :)
P.P.S.: She gave me a peck after reading this which makes me all the more happy pappy! :D

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RELATIONSHIP (Acrostic)

2009-06-10T20:11:00.004+05:30

Rare but pure
Empty never, always full
Love it gives
Astonished it leaves you
Tough at times
Immense protection it gives
On your hand it rests, fragile
Needs to be taken care of
Sometimes painful
Holds you by your arm
It carries you through the storm
Precious of all

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Darling Of Poetry (Acrostic)

2009-06-10T13:53:00.004+05:30

Dreamer
Avid learner
Romatic
Loves laughing
Invincible
Naive
Graceful

Observant
Friendly

Poised
Obedient
Excited
Triumphant
Rebel
Yours forever

Thats Artz aka Darling of Poetry! :)
Thanks Vinu for the nick...

C.R.O.S.S.R.O.A.D.S (My first acrostic)

2009-06-09T16:29:00.008+05:30

Confusion overpowers my senses

Rough patches ahead

Oblivious of my surroundings

Smiles beginning to fade

Should I stop thinking about you

Rantings of my brain

Of all I can say today

All my smiles have lost the lustre

Do you still love me

Still I await an answer

P.S.: My first acrostic... I promise to get better with every acrostic I try.
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Edited at 16.06.2009 -

Guys, this post has won the BWA Honorable Mentions Award at Amias' blog! :)

This is the first big recognition I have received for my poetry! Thanks a lot!

TRUST

2009-06-05T17:50:00.001+05:30

T.R.U.S.T.

What is the first thing that comes to your mind when you hear this word - TRUST!

Do you start thinking about someone on whom you can trust or do you think about the one who broke your trust?

Sometimes it gets so difficult to decipher what the word Trust is all about!

Let me share a small story with you guys about God and his disciple...

Once a village was drowning due to floods. The rescue operations had begun.

There was a village temple. The priest was a big worshipper of Lord Shiva. When the floods had just hit the village, all the people starting moving to other villages. They offered to help the priest, but he refused saying that his Shiva would come to help him.

The water levels had begun to rise. The commandos came in boats to rescue people, but the priest again refused the help offered saying that his Shiva would come.

The whole village was drowning in the flood. The temple also drowned in the water. The priest clinged to the tip of the temple tomb. Military officers came through a helicopter and they tried to help him. But the priest again refused it.

The next day, the priest died. He reached heaven and started fighting with Lord Shiva.

"I worshipped you day and night, not minding any heat or cold and you did not even bother to help me when I needed you the most," shouted the Priest.

"Dear child, I know who needs me when. Did not your fellow villagers call you while leaving for another village?'' enquired Lord Shiva.

"Yes they did," said the priest.

"Did the commandos and the military men offer to help you?" asked Lord Shiva.

"Yes they did," said the priest.

"You denied the help offered to you by me. I was trying to save you in the form of the villagers, the commandos but you kept ignoring my help and that is why you are here. Please do not doubt my intentions dear disciple," explained Lord Shiva.

The priest was dumbstruck. He had almost lost the trust he had on his Lord which had made him to shout on his Guru. He cursed himself for this act!

It sometimes becomes necessary to bestow some trust on others. Otherwise, the survival becomes impossible. Don't we trust the one who delivers milk at our place? Don't we trust the ones who call us for a dinner at their place? Don't we trust our friends, our parents or our siblings? Sometimes we tend to trust a few strangers as well...

Life is all about trust. There will be an handful of people who would break your trust. They would force you to take a decision of never to trust anyone in life. But TRUST is like our thumb. We can't write without it, we can't hold a spoon without our thumb. It is that important. Trusting someone will give you happiness. And who knows, that someone would compensate for all those who broke your trust at some point or the other in life, isn't it?

Trust is the base of every strong relationship. The stronger the factor of TRUST, the stronger will be your relationship and hence, more happiness! :)

P.S. : I hardly know what went through my mind that forced me to write this. Hope you like it! :)

50. With This, It Begins...

2009-06-04T09:50:00.008+05:30

Alright... With this, I begin with my 50th post... the much awaited and my longest post!!

There is no big celebration as such in the form of awards or something like that. But ... But... But...

This post is going to be very big!! This post contains something for each one of you...

Shall we start with it...?

Okays...

1. Stephen aka Ste -

Hey Ste, I am really thankful to you for introducing me to this beautiful world of blogging. You have always been very sweet to me. You taught me how to use orkut, how to edit a profile or how to change a template of my blog and stuff like that! Hehe... I did not know even a single thing... Lol...

When I was new to blogging, Ste made calls to me regularly to teach me new things and he introduced me to The Writers' Lounge! A great guy at heart... sometimes I feel like pulling the hair out of his head... A great writer!!

Sometimes I find him to be to arrogant. But I know that he is not at all bad at heart. When he is angry he says things on my face, but then he never keeps them in his heart and never does he indulge in bitching about anyone. Truly, a gem of a person you are!

*Hugs*

2. Arjun aka RJ -

He was the first follower of my blog and a regular one at that. He always had something to tell me that would motivate me to write more and even better! He is one sweetheart, very emotional, quite kiddish at times.

But with time, I have been able to witness a lot of changes in you da... you have gone mature, you know how to handle me and my mood swings. This guy is a storehouse for me. I can go and tell him anything I want to and he would be there to understand me. His patience levels are increasing day by day! Phew!

He is very spontaneously humorous! :)

Thanks for being there da! :)

Thanks for giving me the nick - Arii... I keep falling in love with it over and over again! :)

*HUGS*

3. Pratibha aka Pretty Me -

Ah, she is my sweetest sister! :)

What an inspiration she is! You write amazingly well Pratsie.

I have always looked up to you... your ever-smiling face, that love with which you have treated me always, the way you comfort me by your mere presence!

Sometimes she just renders me speechless by those sweet little things that she does for me. Love ya sis...

*HUGS*

4. Kajal aka Shona -

What do I say about her...

My alter ego, my pillow when I cry. She has been a constant support all through.

As I have always said, her heart speaks to me through her blog. She has always given me that warmth, that hug that was much needed, that smile. She always makes me feel so comfortable... woh apnaa-pan hai usme! :)

I have always wanted to say this to her and yays, today I have the opportunity -

Na kuch poocha Na kuch manga
Tune dil se diya jo diya
Na kuch bola na tola
Muskura ke diya jo diya
Tu hi dhoop tu hi chaya

Tu hi apna paraya

Aur kuch na jaanu main

Bas itna hi jaanu

Tujhme Rab dikhta hai

yaara main kya karu

Sajde sar jhukta hai

yaara main kya karu!

I would not want to thank you for anything Kajal. Really. I would just say that I am always going to be there for you! Thanks for the nick 'Sherni'...aweee! I love it! :)

I have never tried to hide anything from you... That 'Dear B' thing did hurt me! :)

Love ya!

*HUGS*

5. Sandeep Balan -

He is a sweetheart! For me, he is not any jester... he is my big brother! :)

No body has ever given me that 'feel good' factor that he gives me. :)

He hardly visits my blog par inke permission ke bina ek patta bhi nahi hilta. :P

He gets to know everything. Thanks bhai. Its such a pleasure to have you in my life!

*BIG HUG*

6. Vinu aka Leo -

This guy is so sweet! I hardly know someone as sweet as him.

He is my bestest friend. I have hardly seen him getting angry on me. He sounds so serious, almost like he only knows how to ishmyle and he doesn't know how to laugh! But, nope, he does laugh out loud... :)

He has a heart made of gold, an amazing poet and a wonderful person.

Thanks a lot for almost shoo-ing me away to go to the doctor whenever am unwell. He always pushes me to write more poetry. I so much need that push everytime being the lazy soul that I am... :)

I reached my 50th post so soon... Vinu...you are one of the reasons for this.

Thanks for the nick Dop! :) Its cho cute! :D

Thanks for being there... :)
*HUGS*

7. Chirag -

An emotional sort of a guy, gets angry very easily. But a very good poet!

His writes are always bang on target. It has been a pleasure knowing you! :)

Every comment of yours, matters! :)

*HUGS*

8. Priyanka -

She is a sweetu! :)

Quite like me... pagal hai, with an absurd thought process... thinks a lot... a dreamer! :)

We are so much similar da! :)

Love!

*HUGS*

9. Chriz aka Chronicwriter -

He is my big brother. He has taught me a lot of things.

The humor king! :)

Thanks for all the support! :)

Love!
*HUGS*

10. Nusrath -

A beautiful soul you are.

You are a sibling to me. :)

SO very emotional, stupid at times, but a sweetheart!

God bless you and Ziyaad! :)

You are always in my prayers! Rock it!
:)

*HUGS*

11. Arun Kumar -

He is my brother... :)

I mean what coincidence...me and Arun share the same birth date, same year! :)

He is one big idiot...a doctor to be... But I still love ya bro... :)

He has pissed me off many times, but I tend to forget all that asap! :)

Stop watching so many movies and study alright? Ya, I know what you want to say - 'Sisters are always like that.'

*HUGS*

12. Kings, Rashi, Nik, Sonshu, Hashan, Bhargav and Pulkit -

You guys rock. Thank you for all the support!

Love ya all... :)

13. Sawan -

I do not know much about you dear, but all I can say is that I have seen him as a regular follower of my blog! He has always been there in my list of followers. Though I have never seen him comment on any post of mine, but its just that I have a feeling that he has always been around. Thank you Sawan! :)

With this I complete my 50th post. A big hug to all of you who have supported me throughout this journey and making this journey worth it! :)

Love ya guys... You simbly rawwkk! :P

Thank you! :)

The next celebrations will be on my 100th post...not before that! Hope to see many more names added to that list! :)

*HUGS*

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Tips on How to Beat the Heat!

2009-06-03T11:22:00.006+05:30

Mummmyyy... I woke up this morning after minimal sleep, sweat and irtitation!

All thanks to Delhi ki garmi! :P

Writing this post ... I am feeling dizzy. And the best part is that am feeling dizzy sitting in an air-conditioned room. Hehe... Howz that?

This is my first ever summer in Delhi. I usually spend my summer vacations in Bangalore. Sorry guys and girls from Bangalore for the cancellation of all plans. I never thought it could be so worse out here in Delhi. I mean, drink lemonades, bottles of water, water melons, citrus fruits, coconut water and still feeling dizzy at the end of it is ... grrrrr! :P

After trying every remedy... i'll now stick to basics...

How about this??

Phew!! This is the best option, right??

Thats me...

And my family has decided to do the same. Wanna see?

Hee haha...

So all those who want to beat the Delhi heat... here is the easiest option for you guys! He he he...

The first two faces in the pic are my parents'. The anger on their faces is because of the electricity problem. So, don't mind!

Okay...so guys and girls... coming back to some serious work... I am done with my 49th post with this. The planning for the 50th one begins.

Stay glued to the screen, i'll be back very soon.

Love ya all...

Artz!

Wedding bells ringing?

2009-06-02T12:12:00.008+05:30

Birthdays were so much fun till I was 18 or 19 years old. My 20th birthday made me realize that I was no more a kid. My college friend got engaged when she was 20.

My 21st birthday... 12th Jan, 2009... it got me scared! There was no flavour of happiness anymore. It was just another day, yet it had something serious attached to it. I was growing an year older. Why was I sad? Why was I not happy like I used to be? May be the very meaning of the day had changed...

An year older...

The first thing that comes to my mind is - I can anytime hear the wedding bells ringing! Damn!

Ever thought about it seriously? C'mon girls...think about it! I have started to think a lot about it!

So many of my friends are getting married so soon...

The engagement ceremony, haldi ceremony, henna, laughters, music playing loud and all that jazz...!

Just yesterday she was a happy-go-lucky sort of a girl and today all of a sudden, her life takes a big turn...the biggest turn! What would she be feeling? Wasn't she so free from all responsibilities till now? Wasn't she free to get up at 10 A.M. in the morning and still not be answerable to anyone? Wasn't she free to enjoy that 'laughter'? Wasn't she free to speak to anyone she wanted to? Wasn't she free to do no household chores and still not be blamed for it?

And now, she would be so much more accountable to everyone in her family. Her life is no more hers. It would always be about her husband, her kids, her in-laws and then about her. So many responsibilities all of a sudden, her thoughts, her fears... no one can answer them!

One of my friends just got married on May 31st... What I could see on her face was more than just happiness, she was tensed...she did not know what will happen... she had so many things to look after. This was the time when she would have to build up the base of the most important relationship of her life... a relationship that would determine her future! Everything would be on her... maintaining the house, taking care of every household activity, building strong relationships with everyone, it would now be about 'her family'.

With every single day passing, my heart is skipping a beat! I just pray that 'THE DAY' never comes. I am behaving like an idiot I know. But that is what any girl would feel. Every single discussions we have without our parents about getting married at the age of 25 and not before that... stops making sense as soon as they find a good guy! Hah!

It almost seems that we never had a life of our own...nor would we ever have. Sigh!!

My message to my friends who are going to get married -

We know we can't help it, isn't it? We epitomize strength. We can handle it girls...

Get married... You can do it... Shrug away all the fears, break all the inhibitions! :)

May you be blessed with all the happiness and strength. Stay blessed! :)

*HUGS*

A Pain That Will Last Forever!

2009-06-01T12:32:00.007+05:30

Everything is so unpredictable these days, isn't it?

Life has itself become a Roadies Battleground or another Splitsvilla for that matter. Yesterday, I saw an episode of real life (And not reel life) Splitsvilla. My friend's girl friend (now his ex-girl friend) got married to someone else yesterday... big day for both of them.

This is not the time to think about what went wrong, what could have been done or anything as such. It is the time for pure emotions, confessions, tears and hugs. It is the time when your friendship with that person gets tested.

I don't know what all would be going through your mind dear, but of all I know, I think this is what you want to tell her -

Dear Love,

I do know what went wrong between us. I do know that I was at fault. The world knows how much we loved each other and that love was not fake.

Today you are getting married and I am all alone here thinking about where I went wrong, what I did. I don't know all that but all I can say is that ever since you came into my life, I loved you with all my heart and soul. I don't know if I would be able to forget you. I love your smile, that hug with which you greeted everyone, that strength in you, that vigour to support someone you believe in, that will to fight life's harsh bends and curves, that love that you showered upon me...I love you!

I have made you cry a lot of times gurl, but tonight I have compensated for it. I would continue to do it all through my life. Thinking of every moment that I had spent with you are today giving me goosebumps...

I know you can never be mine now... But my hearts yearns for your love... It pains when I see you with somebody else... I know I am a loser... But my heart denies to accept the fact that you can now never be mine!

My heart still loves you and no matter what I do, I will always love you!

With Love,

Yours Truly.

Hey guy, all I can say is life goes on. I know what you are going through right now, but trust me... You will get over it and you will have to get over it. Khush reh yaar...sab theek ho jayega. I cried the whole night for you...I know that no one can share the space that she had in your heart, but as a friend, I will always be there with you to share that pain. Love ya...and you know that! Mwah! :)

*TIGHTEST HUG IN THE WORLD TO YOU*

Artz!

My 50th post in a few days...

2009-06-01T11:03:00.003+05:30

Hey guys,

My 50th post is coming up soon. No grand celebrations this time, but yes, there will be a big post from my side.

The world of blogging is so different! I mean, this world just never ceases to amaze me...phew!

Talk about different genres of writings or about different types of people...some people become your friends, some just take you for granted and writing anything they feel about you on their personal blogs, some just backstab you, some become your bestest friends...all these things amaze me.

In these six months time, I have made many friends and a few foes as well... I have also had the opportunity to feature on some wow-type blogs! :)

Anyways, I am coming up with my 50th post very soon. Thanks for all the support guys (good or bad). If ever I go away, I would miss all of you! :)

Love ya all... Take care! Mwah! *A Group Hug*

'Motivation' - A change to bring about!

2009-05-29T12:03:00.007+05:30

MOTIVATION comes from the Latin word 'moveers' which means to move.

It is the energizer of behavior and mother of all actions. Motivation is one key factor in understanding oneself. It is the WHY behind every action of ours. It is that push that makes you to do something worthwhile.

All of us are here to find the motive behind our lives. Every single day we are engaged in the process called self-understanding...why we want to follow a particular path, where will that path lead us to, what will be the repercussions of following that particular path and what if we don't choose to follow that path.

Intrinsic and extrinsic motivational factors...heard of them?

Intrinsic factors include...doing something for internal happiness, may be. For example, playing a soccer match? When doing an activity itself becomes a reward for you, that form of motivation is called Intrinsic.

Extrinsic factors includes rewads from external sources. For example, money or recognition.

My point is that each activity we perform is a result of some direct or indirect motivational factors. Motivation is something that keeps us alive and kickin'.

Hunger for success motivates you.

Thirst for something you have always dreamt of having motivates you.

Financial Security? Why? Your family's faces motivate you.

Work and earn points at work? Why? The fator called Recognition motivates you.

There might be different reasons why to feel motivated. Your reasons and mine may be entirely different. But what I mean to say is everyone feels and should feel motivated!

'Motivation' is one thing that should run in your blood, in every vein! When your goal seems to be unrealistic to anyone, don't you think that you need that push in you to show everyone that it was very much achievable? So that you feel like celebrating with the world after you accomplish it?

I know, with each tough moment, it gets difficult to keep oneself motivated... but it is only this M.O.T.I.V.A.T.I.O.N. that will keep you going and sail through every storm.

With motivations, comes happiness.

A lot of difference lies in saying - 'would want' and 'I must'. 'I must' will give you the push! Whereas, 'would want' will help you remain laid back! Getting out of that 'comfort zones' we enjoy needs Motivation, realizing those goals needs the motivation. There is some part of us that does not want to accept that change, that does not want to reach our objectives in life. For this, breaking those inhibitions and remaining motivated is the key!

Stay motivated, no matter what in you forces you to remain laid back!

Staying motivated, is staying happily and successfully.

Wishing each one of you all the success and happiness you desire!

Love and blessings,

Artz!

P.S.: This post is inspired by two people very special to me. Thank you Pushkala didi and Sandeep! Love ya guys!